Fic: Upon My Liar's Chair (5/?) WIP

[beanside]

Title: Upon My Liar's Chair
Rating: Adult
Disclaimer: Thankfully, this didn't happen. I don't know them, I don't know what they do in their spare time, but I doubt it's any of this.
A/N: Much love to my wife for doing the quick once over. Sweet Charity fic, for avid_slacker
Warning: Character injury, permanent disability.





12:00.

Jeff glanced at the clock over the stove for the eight-millionth time. It was noon, and he hadn't heard a peep from Jensen. Sure the guy was never a morning person, but this was a little ridiculous.

Everything in him said “go check on him,” but the last thing Jeff wanted to do was imply that Jensen couldn't take care of himself.

Apparently tired of watching Daddy waffle, Bisou got up and trotted down the hall to Jensen's room, nosing open the door.

“Bisou! Don't you dare—Come here,” Jeff hissed.

He would swear sometimes that the damn dog was smarter than him. At the very least, she had the market cornered on stubborn.

She trotted in the room and Jeff started down the hall, hesitating at Jensen's door.

Then, Bisou whined piteously, her 'why won't you talk to me' sound, and Jeff nudged the door open. “Bisou, cut it out. Let the poor man sleep-”

She looked up from next to Jensen on the carpet, the wheelchair tilted onto its side.

“Jesus, Jen! Are you okay?”

The look Jensen shot him could have flayed skin from bone. “I'm awesome. How are you?” He rubbed at his legs,

“You should have called!”

“Oh for Christ's sake, Jeff. I'm not a fucking invalid. I toppled the chair. Whoopee. It's a near daily occurrence. I'll get up as soon as some of the spasms ease up, okay?”

“I could help you-”

“No. I'm fine,” Jensen spat. “Just let me handle it.”

“Jen,” Jeff started.

“Fuck, are you deaf? I thought I was the handicapped person here. Out!”

Jeff clucked his tongue, and Bisou came to his side quickly, following him quietly out of the room.

Jensen didn't come out that afternoon. Jeff waited, wondering what he would say. When darkness started to fall, he turned on his computer and hit the internet.

Comments

[2sexyboys.livejournal.com]

Oh, Jeff you didn't think this was going to be easy did you...sigh. Poor Jen.

*pats confused Bisou*

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Nothing good is ever easy.

Except cake. Cake is pretty easy, and tasty. *nod*

But yeah. Thank you!

[deathangelgw.livejournal.com]

hmm Jen is stubborn, yis...but he's also full of pride too. It takes a looooooooooooong time to ask for help in that situation...teehee so glad you put that in! awesome more soon, yis?? that was too short!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Well, yes. Jen's not an easy person generally. Add in stubborn Texas pride, and you've got a handful.

Thank you! I'm glad you liked!

[ladykatiewench.livejournal.com]

Awww...yeah the boys are so messed up!! Poor things!

But I agree with the comment above...I think Bisou needs some lovin'!! She tries to love her humans!

I love this fic. You have no idea!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*blush* Thank you!

Bisou totally needs love. *nod*

And she'll get some, I promise.

[embroiderama]

Ack, how hard for Jeff and Bisou not to be able to make things better and for Jensen struggling with his pain and his pride.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*nod* (I love your icon so very much, btw) Thank you!

[ysbail.livejournal.com]

Jensen sees himself as less of a person now, not even allowing a friend to help - not accepting that he needs the help ...

This is going to be a hard road to travel along isn't it?

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*laugh* Thank you!

It is going to be a hard road for him.

[jellicle.livejournal.com]

You're doing a great work at breaking Jensen and me.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

\o/

*grin* Thank you!

[poisontaster]

*whines and makes puppy eyes*

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*grin* Awww! *pet* I updated googledocs.

[paintmydays.livejournal.com]

Oh... poor guys. I wanna hug them tight.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*Grin* Thank you!

[twicet.livejournal.com]

Just catching up. Liking your story. Thank you for writing

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying!

[keyweegirlie.livejournal.com]

Oh Jensen...*sighs*

It'll be interesting to see which one of these guys 'break' first...

*hugs*
-C-

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Pffft. Like there's a doubt? Bisou always wins. *grin*

[eloise-bright.livejournal.com]

*whines piteously* More, please. I'm rather partial to bitter hurting Jensen. With a side of slightly worried Jeff.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Good! Cause there's plenty more of both to come! Hee! Thank you!

[phantomas.livejournal.com]

We like wounded-with-too-much-pride-for-his-own-good Jensen very very much :D

and...Jeff hitting the internet makes me grin, because it makes me think of his comment above about Bisou's being stubborn, and uhm, like dog, like owner? ;)

thank you :D

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*snuggle* Hee! I'm glad you like!

[phantomas.livejournal.com]

Just read the new part! I like how prickly Jensen is (and well, with reason!)...so Jeff is going to buy a house nearby, uhm? Interesting *G*

:D

[1more-sickpuppy.livejournal.com]

Aww..! Methinks Jeff should be less respectful and just pick the damn cripple off the floor, now. If Jensen can't handle that, well what's he gonna do? Kick Jeff? *snerk* But that's just me... ;)

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[lomer.livejournal.com]

LJ ate my lengthy response to this. I hate you LJ.

Cliffnote version of my response is:

Oh Jen. I'd hug you, but then you'd accuse me of treating you like an invalid. Poor Jeff is just trying to do the right thing. I'm glad Bisou is there to check in on Jensen without that pesky urge to "respect his privacy."

I also adore the title because that song is just so amazingly powerful. The lyrics alone provoke so many strong images, and the way Johnny Cash sings it is simply amazing. It's a great association to make with this series.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

Well, yes. Cause Bisou trumps all. *grin*

I'm glad you like it! (and yes, it's an amazingly powerful song, and kinda says where the series is going, in a nutshell. *grin*)

[lomer.livejournal.com]

I'm officially afraid of when you get inspired by "everyone I know goes away in the end ... I will let you down, I will make you hurt."

That's the section of the song that always breaks my heart every single time I hear it. The idea of being completely alone and thinking you deserve it. That you need it in order to protect people.

Aw, Johnny Cash your version of this song just breaks me. The NiN version is also gut wrenching, but there's something powerful about the simplicity of Cash's version.

Thanks for writing! I can't wait for more!

[avid-slacker.livejournal.com]

I feel badly for Jen. I can understand his embarrassment, but hopefully Jeff can reach him without making him feel like less of a person.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

We shall see! *Grin* And yes, there will probably be massages.

[masterofmercury.livejournal.com]

Poor Jennybean. :(

Can't wait for more!

[beanside.livejournal.com]

More is posted! Thank you!

[xenasoul.livejournal.com]

So stubborn, Jensen....that´s a no no to you.*g*
When Jeff realizes he´s in pain he´s going to get really pissed.

I´m loving your fic, hon:)But the chaps are still too short!!!*g*

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*laugh* Oh yes. Jeff is gonna be ticked.

I'd love the chaps to be longer, but for now, that's what I've got. *shrug*

[trishabooms.livejournal.com]

Oh no!
Jensen sorting is most certainly required, and who better to do it than Jeff.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*grin* Thank you!

[hederahelix.livejournal.com]

I clearly need to 1)delete old WGA strike icons, 2)make more jensen, jared, and/or jeff ones and 3)upload those to my account. Since I'm already half an hour behind schedule this morning (and hey, it's not even 8 am, and I won't leave work a minute before 8:30 pm, that does not bode well).

I also woke up to the cat throwing up. yay.

And I didn't see this when you posted.

::kicks ground::

Anywhoo--I'll say this. What I loved about this chapter was that Jeff didn't hover. He didn't push. He listened to Jensen.

What I want to know--and what I know I won't know for a while since the story is from Jeff's pov--is whether Jensen expected Jeff to listen to Jensen. I mean, nobody else seemed to listen to Jensen. I want to know precisely what's going through Jensen's head: how much is shame, how much if grief, how much is anger, how much is something else he feels around Jeff that Jen's not admitting to.

I know that we're getting Jeff's POV,and that's working, so I'm not lobbying for you to change that, because I don't want you to do that to the story.

But consider this my official entry in the "Conversations I'm Looking Forward To Watching Them Have Down the Road" when things are better resolved.

I'm looking forward, in other words, to watching Jeff react to Jensen's response to this.

I'm looking forward to watching Jeff watch Jensen be surprised that he doesn't have to take care of Jeff's emotions and that Jeff won't rush in to save Jensen unless he asks. I'm curious to find out how much Jensen has been, even unconsciously, letting other people do things for him because Jensen doesn't want to ask/has trouble admitting that he needs help.

I don't know the answer to what it's going to look like, but I'll sure like reading it--as much as I liked reading this--when it arrives.

All right, gotta run. Please to be telling your wife I'll try to send feedback on her fic tomorrow. le sigh. I ran out of time this morning. Blerg.

[beanside.livejournal.com]

I'll still switch POVs each chapter, I think. *Grin* Thank you so much!