And then, there's a bearded fetus.

Another day, another morning awake at an ungodly hour. Today, it was an odd combination of pain/weird dreams/outside noises. Fortunately,it didn't wake Jess up. A small nuke going off wouldn't wake Jess up.

I took drugs, in the hopes of actually going back to sleep at some point. Which is pretty much my mornings. I wake up at ass o'clock, then, I go back to bed at 7:30ish, and sleep til nine. Today, maybe til 10, since I've been up since 4.

I feel thoroughly unproductive and bleh. Have appt with pain management next Wednesday. I need something different than what I'm on, because this sucks. If I mainline anymore tylenol, my liver's just going to come flopping out when I cough, I swear. I don't even care. Shoot me up with more lidocane, or Botox, or whatever. I am so sick of hurting.

In cheerier news, we have a new addition. Jess co-worker's kid brought home a rat, and the co-worker freaked out. So, we has a new little rat named Mercy. She seems very sweet, despite being a petshop rat. We're hoping that we can tame her, so she'll be like the boys were.

Last night we spent carefully scooping pine shavings out of the cage, so we could put in good litter that won't make her sick. People are such dumbasses, not reading up on the animal they get. Now she has a fluffy layer of the good paper based bedding, and some tasty treats.

Once she's a little more settled in, I will take pictures for all to see.

From September 8th to the 14th is Invisible Illness Awareness Week. I don't necessarily have an illness, but I do have a disability that isn't visible. To look at me, you'd just see a fat chick. To see me walk, nothing. The only time you might notice something is if I'm holding something, and it shakes.

Three of my vertebrae have declared war on my spinal cord. They're shifting in unpleasant ways, causing nerves to be pinched, and muscles and tendons to become tight and strained. the middle one, which is in the middle of my neck is actually pinching into my spinal cord. From the outside, I'm just someone who pops a lot of pills and says that she's in pain.
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