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I haven't posted in a while regarding the state of T.

That's probably because I'm so disgusted all around that I don't feel like talking about it.



Okay, here we go:

Home:
(God, where to start?)

• Dad was laid off from his part time job. They treated him like shit, so it's not a bad thing, but now he doesn't do ANYTHING. Seriously. Nothing. Which leads into the next one...


• Mom is losing her mind. She's depressed, randomly hostile, and making us miserable. She gets into almost daily fights with dad, and....


• Grandmom is still kicking. Mom is so frustrated with her, I'm amazed she hasn't tried to smother her. Her mind is slowing down a little, and her hearing is bad. SO, you have to scream, and keep it simple. It's lovely.


• Money sucks shit. I'm still figuring out all my finances, and getting back on my feet. My car isn't helping, by randomly turning into a money pit. IT needs nearly $1000 more work on it, but that's going to have to wait.

Work

• I love my job, but the school forms this year have been killer. My brain, it is ded.


• My boss is having trouble understanding the nature of my disability and medication issues. As a result, I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm a lazy bum who can't pay attention for more than 10 seconds.


• As a result of the above, he's instituted limited online time during the afternoons, which while it's not unreasonable, but still makes me feel like a 9 year old.

Health:

• My neck is getting worse. The pain wakes me up at night, and I'm considering asking for a delayed release oxycodone.


• The neurontin, which helps a little, also makes me stupid. I lose words, my short term memory is shit, and my focus blows. Am considering requesting Ritalin for this.


• I'm not sure whether it's the drugs or the neck causing it, but 8/10 days, I now have noticeable tremors.


• I'm always tired, because my sleep is for shit. Which can also cause my lack of focus. Yay.


• My depression is only slightly controlled by the Zoloft, however, with no health insurance, I can't afford the other options. This results in depression, and lack of patience, especially with myself.

Jess:

• My bright spot. I live to come home and cuddle her.


• Lyrica helped, but then she got itchy. However, since she's still itchy 2 weeks off of it, it's probably a stupid fibro trick.


• Her boss makes mine look like Ghandi.


• Yes, this would be the woman who is in charge of Disability Support Services.


• Apparently, actually y'know, supporting someone who works in the office with a disability is too much to ask.