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beansideOf course, not long after I posted yesterday, the fatigue set in. So, I had another cup of coffee. Holy shit, I was wired and exhausted which is a really unpleasant way to go see the doctor. My pulse was a little fast, my blood pressure was borderline high, it was awesome. (I took everything when I was slightly less cracked out, and it was fine, just a situational thing. Once I got back from the doctor's appointment, I ate something and laid down for four hours.
I didn't sleep, because I was still too cafeinated, but it was nice to be in the dark for four hours. I ended up cancelling our game, Mad Mage, because I could not focus for shit. I'd have been a horrible DM. I feel bad about it, but I would have felt worse had I tried and been really scattered and fucking up.
I'm weird about my DMing. I almost view it as a weirdly sacred trust between the players and the DM. I'm promising that I'll do my best to create an immersive, entertaining game, and in the end to be the biggest fan of the characters, even as I throw obstacles in their way. They're promising to play in ways that doesn't fuck over the rest of the players, and to play nice and play in a way that they'll enjoy. I'm also promising not to use the knowledge I've gotten ahead of time in session 0 of things that are no-gos for them or topics that trigger them to do anything but make the game a safe and fun environment. (I don't understand DMs who don't use safety tools or use players triggers against them.)
Today I have two games. The same one, run twice. It should be interesting. It's a simple game, meant to be an introduction to D&D, so it shouldn't be difficult. I did need to go in an make a couple of changes due to player triggers, but I don't mind doing that.
Tomorrow, it's another day of observation, this one thankfully on the morning shift from 7am-3pm, which is much easier. Then, another three weeks of class and afterwards, who knows? Hopefully, I have a little more of an idea soon.
Okay, I'm going to go get myself together and have a little more coffee. Everyone have an ecxellent Sunday!
I didn't sleep, because I was still too cafeinated, but it was nice to be in the dark for four hours. I ended up cancelling our game, Mad Mage, because I could not focus for shit. I'd have been a horrible DM. I feel bad about it, but I would have felt worse had I tried and been really scattered and fucking up.
I'm weird about my DMing. I almost view it as a weirdly sacred trust between the players and the DM. I'm promising that I'll do my best to create an immersive, entertaining game, and in the end to be the biggest fan of the characters, even as I throw obstacles in their way. They're promising to play in ways that doesn't fuck over the rest of the players, and to play nice and play in a way that they'll enjoy. I'm also promising not to use the knowledge I've gotten ahead of time in session 0 of things that are no-gos for them or topics that trigger them to do anything but make the game a safe and fun environment. (I don't understand DMs who don't use safety tools or use players triggers against them.)
Today I have two games. The same one, run twice. It should be interesting. It's a simple game, meant to be an introduction to D&D, so it shouldn't be difficult. I did need to go in an make a couple of changes due to player triggers, but I don't mind doing that.
Tomorrow, it's another day of observation, this one thankfully on the morning shift from 7am-3pm, which is much easier. Then, another three weeks of class and afterwards, who knows? Hopefully, I have a little more of an idea soon.
Okay, I'm going to go get myself together and have a little more coffee. Everyone have an ecxellent Sunday!
