The backlash to the backlash to the thing that's just begun

[beanside]

So, I did not get the job. Yet again, I got great feedback, but supposedly didn't push that I'm capable of having hard discussions and they "Didn't want to set me up for failure." I don't know what they want. I mentioned having a couple of uncomfortable and unpleasant conversations as DM, but I guess that wasn't enough. It's not like I, as a coworker am going to have those discussions, so I don't know what the fuck they want me to do. If my teammate gets it, I'm going to flip a table. She's nice enough, but she's lazy and is not good about professional communication. Oh well, not my problem.

I'm really upset about this one. It felt like a last chance, somehow. It wasn't, I know. More jobs go up every day, and I can apply until the cows come home. But it really feels like I'm stuck here now. The one good thing is that I won't have to worry about my schedule for a while. It was stressing me out thinking that it might mess with my TTRPG time. But the extra money would have been very nice. I'll move past it in a few days, but right now I'm just pissed and disheartened.

The weather in Baltimore has been up and down lately, and it's been fucking with me. For the last five days, I've been having a headache that ranges from annoying to screaming pain, and have been low key nauseous, with occasional surges. Last night, we were supposed to have storms, though I never heard anything, but today I don't feel nauseous, so I'll take it.

Tonight we shall play Curse of Strahd, and have more creepy goth shenanigans. Tomorrow is my busy day, and we'll be running all over creation to pick up our prime rib dinner. (I'm seriously looking forward to eating the shit out of the horseradish sauce.)

I'm debating between whether to do the prime rib Saturday or Sunday. We've got games both nights, but Saturday's is earlier, and I do have to go see Dad. With the prime rib taking about an hour and the hashbrown casserole clocking in at 50 minutes, it could be tight and I might have to interrupt game to pull shit out. On the other hand, I don't really want to wait til Sunday. I want my prime rib now, dammit. Oh well I'll think on it.

Okay, I'm going to go forth and do some prep for my weekend games. Everyone have a perfectly awesome Friday!

Comments

[coyotegestalt]

I am so pissed at them. You would be a great manager! You herd overdramatic cats every week!

I'm having the same mental debate about what day this weekend to do the corned beef that was on sale. Scheduling long cook times is complicated!

[anutty1]

I'm sorry about the job. It does sound like it's time to move on. As someone in a very similar situation, I can guess how pissed and sad you feel, but definitely use that to fuel your job search!

Sorry to hear about the job

[8hyenas]

You work so hard! I wish it were being properly rewarded. Keep your chin up, and don't give up! Something else will come along either with IKEA or not

[dine]

dang, I'm sorry about the job. it almost sounds to me like they appreciate you so much where you are that they aren't willing to make a change as they'd have to find someone to replace you. but of course that's no good to you

I hope you can sort out the prime rib thing - timing cooking time can be a pain, can't it?

[beanside]

Thank you. I even used that during the interview! Apparently D&D doesn't count like PTA or volunteer work, which were her two suggestions on where to find managerial experience.

Timing is difficult! I don't want to have to pause the game every twenty minutes to get stuff out of the oven, but on the other hand, I really really want the prime rib.

[beanside]

I have been applying, but haven't gotten any bites yet.
Thank you! I don't want to be the one who knows everything and doesn't get to use it.

Re: Sorry to hear about the job

[beanside]

Thank you! I've been putting in applications, but nothing so far. But I'll keep trying.

[beanside]

Yeah, the one TikTok a friend sent me called it the designated survivor syndrome. You're the one person who knows how to do everything in your department, so you're kind of stuck.

I'm still debating on it, but I really want that prime rib.

[coyotegestalt]

and in the end, there was no cabbage at the market, so the corned beef is going in the freezer for a future more cabbageful weekend, and I'm doing a (much faster to cook) turkey breast instead, probably with buttery mashed turnips and some stirfried greens. It's hard to go wrong with any plan that has buttery turnips in, right?

(yay multigame weekends! I hope you're not exhausted)