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beansideSo, yesterday sucked. We got home and everything was good, we handed out presents, and then Sam toddled out and...he just was not doing well.
His back paws had been swollen, but I'd assumed it was from the vet drawing blood last week. By the time we got home, they were worse, and the front foot was starting to swell as well. And worst of all, he seemed really uncomfortable. He was eating and drinking like he was starving and parched, and when Jess picked him up, he was panting a little bit. We talked about it, and made the decision to let him go.
Thank god for the emergency vet. They were so kind. We both were braced for them to give pushback about jumping to euthanasia, but once they saw him, and what wrecks we were, I think they understood. It was all over in about half an hour, which seemed like a ridiculously short amount of time. He was thoroughly pissed to be fucked with, and gave Jess a parting scratch.
It was the right choice, but I still feel like a monster. And god, I miss him. Getting up this morning and not having him right there demanding food was hard.
Jess found an old 20 second clip of him purring and I listened to that like four times and cried. Crying was definitely the name of the game yesterday. I'd be fine and then a wave of grief would well up.
Today, I have nothing planned. Jess has to go get their driver's license renewed, and I might go get the emissions done on my car. I'm late, and if I don't get it done by Saturday, they'll suspend my registration. I'm good at procrastinating, what can I say? Maybe we'll have time to watch something. We watched The Batman on Saturday. We had to pull the light blocking curtains all the way across and turn off all the lights to have a chance at seeing anything, but overall, I liked it. It was entertaining, and I enjoyed Pattinson as the bat. I just wish it was slightly better lit, since there were a few scenes that I could not see shit.
Not looking forward to going back in the office on Thursday. Actually, kind of dreading it. I'll deal, of course, since there's no other choice. And at least it's just one day a week. I'm planning to take a Covid test on Wednesday, just to be sure, since no one was masked in Pennsylvania. Literally, we saw 7 people wearing a mask during the whole 3 days. We were, of course, but it was a little disheartening, especially since Pennsylvania's transmission rate is higher than Maryland's.
I shall now go forth and think really hard about pants. No guarantee I'm going to put them on, but I'll think about it. Have the best Monday you can!
His back paws had been swollen, but I'd assumed it was from the vet drawing blood last week. By the time we got home, they were worse, and the front foot was starting to swell as well. And worst of all, he seemed really uncomfortable. He was eating and drinking like he was starving and parched, and when Jess picked him up, he was panting a little bit. We talked about it, and made the decision to let him go.
Thank god for the emergency vet. They were so kind. We both were braced for them to give pushback about jumping to euthanasia, but once they saw him, and what wrecks we were, I think they understood. It was all over in about half an hour, which seemed like a ridiculously short amount of time. He was thoroughly pissed to be fucked with, and gave Jess a parting scratch.
It was the right choice, but I still feel like a monster. And god, I miss him. Getting up this morning and not having him right there demanding food was hard.
Jess found an old 20 second clip of him purring and I listened to that like four times and cried. Crying was definitely the name of the game yesterday. I'd be fine and then a wave of grief would well up.
Today, I have nothing planned. Jess has to go get their driver's license renewed, and I might go get the emissions done on my car. I'm late, and if I don't get it done by Saturday, they'll suspend my registration. I'm good at procrastinating, what can I say? Maybe we'll have time to watch something. We watched The Batman on Saturday. We had to pull the light blocking curtains all the way across and turn off all the lights to have a chance at seeing anything, but overall, I liked it. It was entertaining, and I enjoyed Pattinson as the bat. I just wish it was slightly better lit, since there were a few scenes that I could not see shit.
Not looking forward to going back in the office on Thursday. Actually, kind of dreading it. I'll deal, of course, since there's no other choice. And at least it's just one day a week. I'm planning to take a Covid test on Wednesday, just to be sure, since no one was masked in Pennsylvania. Literally, we saw 7 people wearing a mask during the whole 3 days. We were, of course, but it was a little disheartening, especially since Pennsylvania's transmission rate is higher than Maryland's.
I shall now go forth and think really hard about pants. No guarantee I'm going to put them on, but I'll think about it. Have the best Monday you can!
