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beansideNow that I've earwormed your for We Don't Talk About Bruno, my morning is complete.
I am having a rough few days. The dizziness continues to worry me, and now we have added nausea. I had to cancel our Monster of the Week game after I promptly returned my dinner to sender, and just felt really shitty. It's possible I could have done it, but it would have been unpleasant, and I just wouldn't have been really ready to go, and I feel like that wouldn't be fair to my players. They deserve better than me half-assing it. I feel horrible though. This is the second game I've had to cancel in a week.
Yesterday, a couple of hours after my appointment, I decided to take a nap, since I hadn't slept great the night before, and I promptly had a full on anxiety attack. It sucked. I took a couple of Benadryl and eventually settled down, but I hate that feeling. I'm hoping this is not a new thing I have to look forward to.
Deep down, my brain is still convinced that there's something really wrong with me, and it's fucking me up. I have chronic health issues like asthma and diabetes, but overall, I'm usually pretty healthy. It feels like my body is betraying me.
It should be reassuring that the doctors are all kind of chill about it. I mean, the ER ruled out anything with my heart, and my primary care didn't seem particularly worried. She seems to think it's simple vertigo or an inner ear problem.
I did set up an appointment with an outside ENT for a bit sooner than the Hopkins one. I just couldn't see waiting til late June. I now have an appointment for early May, which still feels like far away, but at least it's a little sooner. I also went ahead and set up my neuro appointment, which is in early June.
Jess and I are supposed to go to Lancaster, PA for their birthday in May, but I don't know if I'm good to drive that far. We'll have to see how it goes between now and then. We could possibly take the train up to Philly, or go somewhere a little more local, I suppose. But I really wanted to hit the Old Navy outlet. I tend to get carsick when someone else drives, so that's not really an option. They drove me to the ER, and that's about as far as I'm comfortable with.
I'm just really frustrated, and still scared. I know whatever they think it is, we'll deal with, but I want it fixed now.
Add to that, Dad's dizzy again, which really freaks me out, and I'm just not having a great time of it.
Today, I have to get the grocery order and take Yoda to the groomer. Fun as always.
Okay, I am going to go get more coffee and relax until then. Have a good Saturday everyone!
I am having a rough few days. The dizziness continues to worry me, and now we have added nausea. I had to cancel our Monster of the Week game after I promptly returned my dinner to sender, and just felt really shitty. It's possible I could have done it, but it would have been unpleasant, and I just wouldn't have been really ready to go, and I feel like that wouldn't be fair to my players. They deserve better than me half-assing it. I feel horrible though. This is the second game I've had to cancel in a week.
Yesterday, a couple of hours after my appointment, I decided to take a nap, since I hadn't slept great the night before, and I promptly had a full on anxiety attack. It sucked. I took a couple of Benadryl and eventually settled down, but I hate that feeling. I'm hoping this is not a new thing I have to look forward to.
Deep down, my brain is still convinced that there's something really wrong with me, and it's fucking me up. I have chronic health issues like asthma and diabetes, but overall, I'm usually pretty healthy. It feels like my body is betraying me.
It should be reassuring that the doctors are all kind of chill about it. I mean, the ER ruled out anything with my heart, and my primary care didn't seem particularly worried. She seems to think it's simple vertigo or an inner ear problem.
I did set up an appointment with an outside ENT for a bit sooner than the Hopkins one. I just couldn't see waiting til late June. I now have an appointment for early May, which still feels like far away, but at least it's a little sooner. I also went ahead and set up my neuro appointment, which is in early June.
Jess and I are supposed to go to Lancaster, PA for their birthday in May, but I don't know if I'm good to drive that far. We'll have to see how it goes between now and then. We could possibly take the train up to Philly, or go somewhere a little more local, I suppose. But I really wanted to hit the Old Navy outlet. I tend to get carsick when someone else drives, so that's not really an option. They drove me to the ER, and that's about as far as I'm comfortable with.
I'm just really frustrated, and still scared. I know whatever they think it is, we'll deal with, but I want it fixed now.
Add to that, Dad's dizzy again, which really freaks me out, and I'm just not having a great time of it.
Today, I have to get the grocery order and take Yoda to the groomer. Fun as always.
Okay, I am going to go get more coffee and relax until then. Have a good Saturday everyone!
