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beansideLast day of work before the Christmas. Mind you, I'm on my normal schedule--no extra days off for me. But I am definitely ready for the break. Downside, my sister is off for almost the whole thing, so it'll be very loud and overwhelming.
I've been one big ball of overstimulated as of late. By the evening, I just have to go lay down for a couple of hours to function. Last night the dog would not stop barking at the mail truck and I dumped a cup of water on his head, because I could not handle it a moment more. I felt bad about it immediately, of course. I expect this to last until after Christmas, maybe through the new year. It's obnoxious. But when I think about it, it's not unusual for me. The holidays have been witness to some of my best outbursts. Greatest hits include yelling at my mother and grandmother that "it's fucking Christmas, can you act like it for five minutes," followed immediately by sobbing uncontrollably. So, I may have a touch of seasonal depression?
I'm going to try to be gentle with myself, but I find that I'm not that good at it. Part of the general irritation is with myself for being such a drama queen. Oh well, I'll try. At least now that Jess has pointed it out, I know what to look out for, and maybe I can remember to pull myself out of the situation before I want to claw my skin off.
I started wrapping presents yesterday. Four presents wrapped, three to go! I'm still feeling a little bad about only getting my sister two wrapped presents, even though one is a computer and I also got her her winter coat from Old Navy. (The coat was given to her early, because it's been fucking cold.) And then Dad has only clothes, which I also am meh about--I feel like I should have gotten him some sort of gadget. Oh well. I will deal. I'm not ordering another damn thing, so everyone is just going to have to like their shit, but I will likely fret until the holiday at least.
I put up the blurb for my superhero game. It's a one shot, but it could definitely go longer depending on if my players want it to. Now I just need to write the actual game. I've got two weeks to do it, so no huge rush. Much like Monster of the Week, I probably will just plot out the bare bones of what they'll be doing, because the players never go in the direction that I expect.
Aside from that, not a whole lot going on. Everyone have a good Thursday!
I've been one big ball of overstimulated as of late. By the evening, I just have to go lay down for a couple of hours to function. Last night the dog would not stop barking at the mail truck and I dumped a cup of water on his head, because I could not handle it a moment more. I felt bad about it immediately, of course. I expect this to last until after Christmas, maybe through the new year. It's obnoxious. But when I think about it, it's not unusual for me. The holidays have been witness to some of my best outbursts. Greatest hits include yelling at my mother and grandmother that "it's fucking Christmas, can you act like it for five minutes," followed immediately by sobbing uncontrollably. So, I may have a touch of seasonal depression?
I'm going to try to be gentle with myself, but I find that I'm not that good at it. Part of the general irritation is with myself for being such a drama queen. Oh well, I'll try. At least now that Jess has pointed it out, I know what to look out for, and maybe I can remember to pull myself out of the situation before I want to claw my skin off.
I started wrapping presents yesterday. Four presents wrapped, three to go! I'm still feeling a little bad about only getting my sister two wrapped presents, even though one is a computer and I also got her her winter coat from Old Navy. (The coat was given to her early, because it's been fucking cold.) And then Dad has only clothes, which I also am meh about--I feel like I should have gotten him some sort of gadget. Oh well. I will deal. I'm not ordering another damn thing, so everyone is just going to have to like their shit, but I will likely fret until the holiday at least.
I put up the blurb for my superhero game. It's a one shot, but it could definitely go longer depending on if my players want it to. Now I just need to write the actual game. I've got two weeks to do it, so no huge rush. Much like Monster of the Week, I probably will just plot out the bare bones of what they'll be doing, because the players never go in the direction that I expect.
Aside from that, not a whole lot going on. Everyone have a good Thursday!
