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beansideI did not get the job. I got an email yesterday, inviting me to a "touch base" follow up. This did not sound good, so I asked my manager, who confirmed that no, it was a follow up to discuss what I need to do to move forward. He was told it's that I don't have enough leadership experience.
I'm surprisingly not okay with this. It's starting to feel like to get a job as a manager, you have to be a manager. I honestly don't know what else I can do within the bounds of my current job. I've been project leader and I've led the Delivery Updates team. I don't know how much else there is that I can do.
Worse, I have to go to this fucking meeting, in office to be told all the ways I'm deficient. It feels like it could have been a Teams meeting rather than expecting me to drag my ass into the office. My manager wasn't really supposed to tell me that I didn't get it, so I would have gone in blind, assuming it was a follow up interview. I mean, I get that you have to find out somehow, but it's still annoying as fuck. I think I'm going to just go in for the morning, and take the rest of the day off. I have the PTO, and I have a feeling this is going to be ego-bruising. I may not want to deal with work afterwards.
I thought I was doing well with it, then I woke up at 4am this morning, and had my feels about it. I might as well get all the tears out now so I can be poised and professional on Tuesday. Now I'm just tired.
That may be my mood overall right now. I'm just tired. There's so much to do and we don't have money to get any of it done. If I could rustle up the money to pay off the loan I took against my 401K, I could get more money out and maybe get things back on an even keel, but there are too many bills to pay for that to be feasible right now. I know things will get better, but damn I'm tired of scrambling.
In the attempt to cut bills down a little bit, we're trying out Tmobile's home internet service. It's only $55/month, and if it works, we'll be adding the Paramount+ streaming service and ditching cable. That would be about $200 less per month, which would be a welcome change. The new gateway is supposed to be here Friday, so we'll have the weekend to test it out. The reviews I've seen had varying results. It seems to depend where you put the modem, so we'll test it in a few places to see what works well. I'm thinking our bay window might be a good option. We're pretty close to the tower, so hopefully we get a good signal. I'd really like to give Comcast the boot.
Tomorrow, I've got to take Dad to get his flu shot, which'll be a production number. The doctor's office is in a warren of a building so that means a wheelchair, which means a lot of lifting and tugging. Fun, fun. Just what I want to do on my day off. But, at least it's on my day off so I don't have to take PTO.
Okay, I feel like that's enough bitching for the moment. Have a good day everyone!
I'm surprisingly not okay with this. It's starting to feel like to get a job as a manager, you have to be a manager. I honestly don't know what else I can do within the bounds of my current job. I've been project leader and I've led the Delivery Updates team. I don't know how much else there is that I can do.
Worse, I have to go to this fucking meeting, in office to be told all the ways I'm deficient. It feels like it could have been a Teams meeting rather than expecting me to drag my ass into the office. My manager wasn't really supposed to tell me that I didn't get it, so I would have gone in blind, assuming it was a follow up interview. I mean, I get that you have to find out somehow, but it's still annoying as fuck. I think I'm going to just go in for the morning, and take the rest of the day off. I have the PTO, and I have a feeling this is going to be ego-bruising. I may not want to deal with work afterwards.
I thought I was doing well with it, then I woke up at 4am this morning, and had my feels about it. I might as well get all the tears out now so I can be poised and professional on Tuesday. Now I'm just tired.
That may be my mood overall right now. I'm just tired. There's so much to do and we don't have money to get any of it done. If I could rustle up the money to pay off the loan I took against my 401K, I could get more money out and maybe get things back on an even keel, but there are too many bills to pay for that to be feasible right now. I know things will get better, but damn I'm tired of scrambling.
In the attempt to cut bills down a little bit, we're trying out Tmobile's home internet service. It's only $55/month, and if it works, we'll be adding the Paramount+ streaming service and ditching cable. That would be about $200 less per month, which would be a welcome change. The new gateway is supposed to be here Friday, so we'll have the weekend to test it out. The reviews I've seen had varying results. It seems to depend where you put the modem, so we'll test it in a few places to see what works well. I'm thinking our bay window might be a good option. We're pretty close to the tower, so hopefully we get a good signal. I'd really like to give Comcast the boot.
Tomorrow, I've got to take Dad to get his flu shot, which'll be a production number. The doctor's office is in a warren of a building so that means a wheelchair, which means a lot of lifting and tugging. Fun, fun. Just what I want to do on my day off. But, at least it's on my day off so I don't have to take PTO.
Okay, I feel like that's enough bitching for the moment. Have a good day everyone!
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Date: 2021-11-05 03:42 pm (UTC)Thank you!
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