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[beanside]

I haven't posted in a while regarding the state of T.

That's probably because I'm so disgusted all around that I don't feel like talking about it.



Okay, here we go:

Home:
(God, where to start?)

• Dad was laid off from his part time job. They treated him like shit, so it's not a bad thing, but now he doesn't do ANYTHING. Seriously. Nothing. Which leads into the next one...


• Mom is losing her mind. She's depressed, randomly hostile, and making us miserable. She gets into almost daily fights with dad, and....


• Grandmom is still kicking. Mom is so frustrated with her, I'm amazed she hasn't tried to smother her. Her mind is slowing down a little, and her hearing is bad. SO, you have to scream, and keep it simple. It's lovely.


• Money sucks shit. I'm still figuring out all my finances, and getting back on my feet. My car isn't helping, by randomly turning into a money pit. IT needs nearly $1000 more work on it, but that's going to have to wait.

Work

• I love my job, but the school forms this year have been killer. My brain, it is ded.


• My boss is having trouble understanding the nature of my disability and medication issues. As a result, I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm a lazy bum who can't pay attention for more than 10 seconds.


• As a result of the above, he's instituted limited online time during the afternoons, which while it's not unreasonable, but still makes me feel like a 9 year old.

Health:

• My neck is getting worse. The pain wakes me up at night, and I'm considering asking for a delayed release oxycodone.


• The neurontin, which helps a little, also makes me stupid. I lose words, my short term memory is shit, and my focus blows. Am considering requesting Ritalin for this.


• I'm not sure whether it's the drugs or the neck causing it, but 8/10 days, I now have noticeable tremors.


• I'm always tired, because my sleep is for shit. Which can also cause my lack of focus. Yay.


• My depression is only slightly controlled by the Zoloft, however, with no health insurance, I can't afford the other options. This results in depression, and lack of patience, especially with myself.

Jess:

• My bright spot. I live to come home and cuddle her.


• Lyrica helped, but then she got itchy. However, since she's still itchy 2 weeks off of it, it's probably a stupid fibro trick.


• Her boss makes mine look like Ghandi.


• Yes, this would be the woman who is in charge of Disability Support Services.


• Apparently, actually y'know, supporting someone who works in the office with a disability is too much to ask.

Comments

[hederahelix.livejournal.com]

If it weren't the first week of school, I'd write you some porn, but alas, you may have to settle for the imaginary kind of porn.

And, um, not to add insult to injury, but you heard that Watchmen is now going to a hellacious court battle between studios and possibly may take longer to see the light of day, right? (I just heard last night about 9 pm and was disappointed that my flist had not told me so.)

On the upside, you can now picture Jensen soothing a pissed off and cranky Jeff. ::digs frantically for silver lining::

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*laugh* Yeah, I saw that. And I figured Jeff would be annoyed.

I'll be okay. I just needed to vent. Thank you for the mental image and the love.