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[beanside]

I haven't posted in a while regarding the state of T.

That's probably because I'm so disgusted all around that I don't feel like talking about it.



Okay, here we go:

Home:
(God, where to start?)

• Dad was laid off from his part time job. They treated him like shit, so it's not a bad thing, but now he doesn't do ANYTHING. Seriously. Nothing. Which leads into the next one...


• Mom is losing her mind. She's depressed, randomly hostile, and making us miserable. She gets into almost daily fights with dad, and....


• Grandmom is still kicking. Mom is so frustrated with her, I'm amazed she hasn't tried to smother her. Her mind is slowing down a little, and her hearing is bad. SO, you have to scream, and keep it simple. It's lovely.


• Money sucks shit. I'm still figuring out all my finances, and getting back on my feet. My car isn't helping, by randomly turning into a money pit. IT needs nearly $1000 more work on it, but that's going to have to wait.

Work

• I love my job, but the school forms this year have been killer. My brain, it is ded.


• My boss is having trouble understanding the nature of my disability and medication issues. As a result, I'm pretty sure he thinks I'm a lazy bum who can't pay attention for more than 10 seconds.


• As a result of the above, he's instituted limited online time during the afternoons, which while it's not unreasonable, but still makes me feel like a 9 year old.

Health:

• My neck is getting worse. The pain wakes me up at night, and I'm considering asking for a delayed release oxycodone.


• The neurontin, which helps a little, also makes me stupid. I lose words, my short term memory is shit, and my focus blows. Am considering requesting Ritalin for this.


• I'm not sure whether it's the drugs or the neck causing it, but 8/10 days, I now have noticeable tremors.


• I'm always tired, because my sleep is for shit. Which can also cause my lack of focus. Yay.


• My depression is only slightly controlled by the Zoloft, however, with no health insurance, I can't afford the other options. This results in depression, and lack of patience, especially with myself.

Jess:

• My bright spot. I live to come home and cuddle her.


• Lyrica helped, but then she got itchy. However, since she's still itchy 2 weeks off of it, it's probably a stupid fibro trick.


• Her boss makes mine look like Ghandi.


• Yes, this would be the woman who is in charge of Disability Support Services.


• Apparently, actually y'know, supporting someone who works in the office with a disability is too much to ask.

Comments

[ymmy12.livejournal.com]

i know this will sound lame but --i will say a prayer.

i hope things improve , especially the health issues. everything is always worse when our bodies don't feel well and we are battling physical and mental health issues.

i send a hug* and here's a silly joke to hopefully make you at least smile :)

joke:

A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning.

The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first, and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee".

The husband said, " You are in charge of the cooking around here and you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee."

Wife replies, "No you should do it, and besides it is in the Bible that the man should do the coffee."

Husband replies, " I can't believe that, show me."

So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testament and shows him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says:

"HEBREWS

[beanside.livejournal.com]

*snort* That was a bad one!

Thank you, though. *grin*