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beansideWell, that wasn't at all how I was expecting my night to go. I think I had mentioned that Jess was taking Boodle to the vet yesterday, because she had lost a bit of weight and now seemed to have an upper respiratory infection. The appt was a 4, and I couldn't take off early from work, so they took an Uber, and I would come to them right after I got off at 4:30 and give them a ride home.
Reality, I wasn't particularly useful that last hour of work. Especially when I started getting texts about the doctor being concerned. The second I could, I lit our of here, getting to the vet just in time to hear the bad news. The short version, she was very sick and we made the decision to euthanize. It sucks. She was a special cat, and I'll miss her so much. Longer, more in depth version below the cut.
When I got there, Jess had just gotten the news. Boodle had a large mass in her stomach, lymph node masses and fluid in her chest. The doctor was sweet as hell. She said that we could go down the route of chemo and oncology, but even as she said it, her voice lacked any sort of confidence. She said that Boodle probably didn't feel well, but she wasn't in pain. But that soon she would be, so the decision had to be made in the next few days. We didn't need two days. There was no way I would put a 15 year old cat through biopsy and surgeries and chemo for another 6 months--we' d be doing that for us, not her. So in the end, she had one last churru and slipped away peacefully. Afterwards, the vet told us that we had 100% made the right decision.
I'm a wreck. I can't stop crying. I cried all last night, didn't sleep well, and I'm still weepy this morning.
I know it's the sacred pact you enter into when you get a new animal, and I was 100% aware of it when I coaxed a skittish, feral kitten in with scraps of cheesesteak 15 years ago. You promise to love and be loved, and at the end, you promise not to let them suffer and to do the right thing.
At least this time, I don't feel like I waited to long like I did with Sam.
After that, we all kind of sat around staring at each other and crying.
Today, work will probably be busy. I'm going to have a hard time giving a shit about any of these people, but I will manage.
I cancelled all of the cat food subscriptions and will send some emails to see which shelter or food bank can use it. Also if they'll take the 30lb bag of litter we just got.
We'll probably get to pick her up on Monday of next week, so there will be more tears then. Jess and I are waiting for her clay pawprint so we can take a picture and send it to our tattoo artist. Jess sid last night that they lost the cat of their heart, and I have to agree.
With Yoda's asshole tendencies, we won't be able to get another cat for a while, so we're going to have to sit with our sadness until we add more sadness to it before we can get another baby.
In other news, our vacation is now 30 days away. I put in a few more orders for things I need before the cruise. Here's hoping some of them get here in time. One of them is a lightweight fleece lined rain jacket. I think it might be warm enough for Alaska. We'll see when it gets here. I have absolutely no regrets about anything that I bought for this trip.
Today I'll find out what the difference will be in my paycheck with the new job when the paystubs drop at about 4pm. The actual money will come tomorrow for CapOne and on Thursday for Chase. Despite that I'm still thinking about shifting the balance of my account to Chase. It's nice to have a brick and mortar to deposit checks. I need to add Jess onto the Chase accout. Should have done that on Saturday when we went to deposit the disbursement check from Dad's estate. Oh well, another Saturday. I'll see if it'll let me make an appointment.
I split up the disbursement into three accounts. CapOne got $5000 and Wells Fargo and Chase each got $10k. I figure that's a good mix, and gives me three cards for various charges. I know there will be a hold for the hotel, there will be a hold from the ship. I still have to pay for the car that's going to take us to the hotel, so I don't want anything to be tied up too much.
Okay, time to go forth and get myself dressed and together for work. Everyone have an amazing Tuesday.
Reality, I wasn't particularly useful that last hour of work. Especially when I started getting texts about the doctor being concerned. The second I could, I lit our of here, getting to the vet just in time to hear the bad news. The short version, she was very sick and we made the decision to euthanize. It sucks. She was a special cat, and I'll miss her so much. Longer, more in depth version below the cut.
When I got there, Jess had just gotten the news. Boodle had a large mass in her stomach, lymph node masses and fluid in her chest. The doctor was sweet as hell. She said that we could go down the route of chemo and oncology, but even as she said it, her voice lacked any sort of confidence. She said that Boodle probably didn't feel well, but she wasn't in pain. But that soon she would be, so the decision had to be made in the next few days. We didn't need two days. There was no way I would put a 15 year old cat through biopsy and surgeries and chemo for another 6 months--we' d be doing that for us, not her. So in the end, she had one last churru and slipped away peacefully. Afterwards, the vet told us that we had 100% made the right decision.
I'm a wreck. I can't stop crying. I cried all last night, didn't sleep well, and I'm still weepy this morning.
I know it's the sacred pact you enter into when you get a new animal, and I was 100% aware of it when I coaxed a skittish, feral kitten in with scraps of cheesesteak 15 years ago. You promise to love and be loved, and at the end, you promise not to let them suffer and to do the right thing.
At least this time, I don't feel like I waited to long like I did with Sam.
After that, we all kind of sat around staring at each other and crying.
Today, work will probably be busy. I'm going to have a hard time giving a shit about any of these people, but I will manage.
I cancelled all of the cat food subscriptions and will send some emails to see which shelter or food bank can use it. Also if they'll take the 30lb bag of litter we just got.
We'll probably get to pick her up on Monday of next week, so there will be more tears then. Jess and I are waiting for her clay pawprint so we can take a picture and send it to our tattoo artist. Jess sid last night that they lost the cat of their heart, and I have to agree.
With Yoda's asshole tendencies, we won't be able to get another cat for a while, so we're going to have to sit with our sadness until we add more sadness to it before we can get another baby.
In other news, our vacation is now 30 days away. I put in a few more orders for things I need before the cruise. Here's hoping some of them get here in time. One of them is a lightweight fleece lined rain jacket. I think it might be warm enough for Alaska. We'll see when it gets here. I have absolutely no regrets about anything that I bought for this trip.
Today I'll find out what the difference will be in my paycheck with the new job when the paystubs drop at about 4pm. The actual money will come tomorrow for CapOne and on Thursday for Chase. Despite that I'm still thinking about shifting the balance of my account to Chase. It's nice to have a brick and mortar to deposit checks. I need to add Jess onto the Chase accout. Should have done that on Saturday when we went to deposit the disbursement check from Dad's estate. Oh well, another Saturday. I'll see if it'll let me make an appointment.
I split up the disbursement into three accounts. CapOne got $5000 and Wells Fargo and Chase each got $10k. I figure that's a good mix, and gives me three cards for various charges. I know there will be a hold for the hotel, there will be a hold from the ship. I still have to pay for the car that's going to take us to the hotel, so I don't want anything to be tied up too much.
Okay, time to go forth and get myself dressed and together for work. Everyone have an amazing Tuesday.
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