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beansideWe survived Monday! It was a very busy day at work, to the point that I mostly did calls, because the queues were absolutely insane. I ended up taking 52 calls, which explains why I was tired at the end of the day.
I love my ADHD medicine. During the day, it kicks ass. I'm very level and focused and no anxiety. But then, usally about 6:00-7pm, it wears off and I get anxious and hyper and I have trouble falling asleep. But worse than that is the return of the border collie feeling, where I feel like I should be doing something other than just laying in bed. Sometimes, the anxiety gets to the point that I want to just claw my skin off, because I feel like I'm going to fly apart. What I really need is a comedown dose of Ritalin (short acting) to get me from 6-10, but no doctor is going to give you stimulants to take before bed (even if they relax you and make you feel normal.)
Basically ADHD treatment for women sucks. I was 51 when I was finally diagnosed, and it's made a world of difference for me. Still, I feel bad for little me, who struggled so hard in school and jobs for so long. And kind of infuriated at the doctors who saw an anxious fat white girl and assumed I was just a delicate flower of mental health issues. I probably also need an Autism screening, but it was hard enough to get an ADHD screening. I just wonder, what my life would have been like if I had been medicated before now. Would I have been able to deal with school better? What would my teenage depression have been like with some Prozac and Concerta?
I mean, I'm basically happy with my life now, but it would have been nice to not have been fighting against my brain for 50yrs.
Today will hopefully be a little bit quieter at work, but we'll see! Today I think I'm going to put in a grocery order, and get some of the stuff I'll need for Thanksgiving. I'd like to test out the recipe for Pumpkin custard with crushed gingersnaps on top before then. We'll see how it goes.
And now, more prepping for the upcoming games. Everyone have an amazing Tuesday!
I love my ADHD medicine. During the day, it kicks ass. I'm very level and focused and no anxiety. But then, usally about 6:00-7pm, it wears off and I get anxious and hyper and I have trouble falling asleep. But worse than that is the return of the border collie feeling, where I feel like I should be doing something other than just laying in bed. Sometimes, the anxiety gets to the point that I want to just claw my skin off, because I feel like I'm going to fly apart. What I really need is a comedown dose of Ritalin (short acting) to get me from 6-10, but no doctor is going to give you stimulants to take before bed (even if they relax you and make you feel normal.)
Basically ADHD treatment for women sucks. I was 51 when I was finally diagnosed, and it's made a world of difference for me. Still, I feel bad for little me, who struggled so hard in school and jobs for so long. And kind of infuriated at the doctors who saw an anxious fat white girl and assumed I was just a delicate flower of mental health issues. I probably also need an Autism screening, but it was hard enough to get an ADHD screening. I just wonder, what my life would have been like if I had been medicated before now. Would I have been able to deal with school better? What would my teenage depression have been like with some Prozac and Concerta?
I mean, I'm basically happy with my life now, but it would have been nice to not have been fighting against my brain for 50yrs.
Today will hopefully be a little bit quieter at work, but we'll see! Today I think I'm going to put in a grocery order, and get some of the stuff I'll need for Thanksgiving. I'd like to test out the recipe for Pumpkin custard with crushed gingersnaps on top before then. We'll see how it goes.
And now, more prepping for the upcoming games. Everyone have an amazing Tuesday!
