beanside | And throw your holy rocks right at her for her satanic wiles.

It's Tuesday and I slept for shit. I didn't get to sleep until about 1, despite all my good intentions and sleep aids. For some reason, I got anxious and wasn' able to settle myself down. One of the ways I did combat it was to take weed at about 12am, and that's sill kind of hanging out. Oh well, I'd rather be tired with a little sleep than the tired with no sleep.

Yesterday up til then had been pretty good. Busy at work, and then I cooked dinner, which was chicken piccata. The sauce was a bit too lemony, but not bad. The chicken was good. I fried it, which alwats tastes good.

After that, I took out all the trash. It was very heavy (my own damn fault) and I needed a moment to sit before I came inside, because my back was screaming.

Then, just to piss my back off even more, I cleaned the cat's litterbox out. by the time I was done, it was time to lay down and stretch the back out. I was so ready for bed. But the time between then and the time I tried to sleep, my brain decided it was time to be an asshole.

I know I need to give myself a little grace about getting all the things done, but it's tough. I feel like I should be superwoman. Able to work full time, yet keep the house immaculately and also, cook 5 star meals.

Since that's unlikely, I'll just have to deal with what I can do.

Today, I plan ot produce another bag of trash, which will sit in the kitchen until tomorrow.

Cool thing, though. I was searching through the Holland America website, and found a link for "experiences". They had a few not so interesting things. But they also had a vow renewal package. And it occurred to me that Jess might want a wedding picture that they don't have dysphoria over.

It sounded super fun. We start with some time wiht Hors d'oeuvres and lovely flowers, then the captain renews our vows, and we get a dinner for two at the Pinnacle Grill. It sounds very nice, and they have a pro photographer who will take pictures for the ceremony. Their picture package is excessive, but I'll probably get it anyways.

I spent some time researching coctail and bridal dresses. I found one that I liked and also one that satisfied my innner Project Runway nerd. In Ink Blue.

Once Jess is hurting a little less, and the drains are out, we shall go to get Jess measured for their suit at Indochino. Fully customized to their decisions.

Now I shall go forth and get myself together. Maybe take a bit of a nippy nap. Everyone have an outstanding Tuesday!