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Another day, and an very Eagles-ish song from Zachariah and the Lobos Riders. I really love the sound of this one.

I am very sleepy today. I fell asleep last night only to wake up at 11pm with the cat on my chest. Normally not a problem, but I woke up anxious, ad needed her to move for a few minutes while I took some anti anxiety meds. She was very obliging, and only flounced a little.

But now, because of the anti anxiety, I'm a little bit extra tired this morning. It'll be fine and won't last long, but for the moment, I just want to curl back up in bed.

Instead, I took ten minutes and washed both pans from last night while my coffee was brewing, so that's done.

I ended up making a Chinese five spice pork with rice and collard greens. It was quite tasty, though a bit salty. I was going to throw the Fried pork in and reduce it, but due to the salt, I just drizzled it. Today, if Jess wants to make it is lemony braised chickpeas, probably with rice again. If they don't feel like making it, then I'll figure something out. Maybe some gochujang glazed chicken or something, though the new gochujang paste I got is a little more firey than my old one. So we'll see if we want to go that route. I wish I had some noodles that I could make ramen or something. I've got some veggies I could toss in.

Yesterday was really busy at work, unsurprisingly. Then, we had two hours of Cardiac MRI open as well as a Cardiac CT. I got them both filled with no problems, but good lord. I understand that sometimes, things happen, and appointments need to be cancelled, but goddamn. Cardiac CTs are a month out, and Cardiac MRIs are three months out! I was pulling patients from July to come in this week.

Things are much less stressful without dad, but also much more dull here. I worry about what food I'm going to make and how to clean the apartment. I go out once in a while, to go get plants for my windowsill or to pick up orders from the grocery. And that's fine with me. I'd still like to get out more, but when the time comes, half the time I just...don't. I like my living space, and I like taking care of my family.

For now, though, I'm going to go get myself together for work. Everyone have a wonderful Tuesday!