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beansideI am up early today, thanks to a coordinated plan of attack by Boodle, who started the harassment around 4:30am. I finally gave up at 5:30, and got up to feed her. I'm going to be dragging by the end of tonight's game.
Yesterday was a mostly quiet day. I had work, then did nothing for the rest of the night, but went to bed early. Which was a good thing for the aforementioned cat antics.
Today, I have work, then a game, then we're probably going to go over to the storage unit to drop some boxes off, then to Savers to donate some clothes, then a game at 7. I've got bubble wrap coming today, so tomorrow, I'll probably start wrapping some of the small breakables we want to keep, so we can get that done. Most of our stuff probably can't be packed til closer, like clothes and electronics, so even starting now doesn't mean that the last few weeks won't be insanely busy.
Has anyone bought anything off Wayfair? I found a couch on there that I flat out love, but I'm leery about buying something I haven't sat on. On the other hand, they're willing to finance me, so that's helpful.
I toldpoisontaster that I never thought that if I started nesting, I would gravitate to the "Modern Farmhouse" genre of furniture. Turns out deep down, I am a basic bitch. See?
I'm trying to figure out placement of things, and I'm having trouble. That's the one downside of the show unit not being empty. I couldn't really imagine my stuff in there, because it was furnished already.
I've been in a weird mood lately. Since the lease was signed, and definitely since it was countersigned. I'm not quite sure what to do with it. I can't even really name it. Some weird combination of sad, anxious, excited, and angry. It mostly just feels unsettled.
I'm sad to be leaving the house I've spent thirty+ years in, definitely. Some days I felt like the house personally had it out for us, but overall, it's been okay, and I'm definitely going to miss the deer who sleep in our backyard. I'm anxious because I can't quite see in my head what our new life will be like. I don't know why I'm angry. Maybe because capitalism says I have to make this decision, because my parents were poor and did the reverse mortgage. Maybe I'm mad at dad for dying, or maybe I'm mad that he didn't die before we'd all broken ourselves taking care of him for two years. Maybe I'm mad at my sister that she's just kind of sitting back and letting Jess and I take point. But I'm also excited because this is a new chapter, and a chance to reinvent ourselves.
I think I need to just cry about it be done with it, maybe? I have an appointment with my psych on Monday, so I'll mention it to him if it's still a there. I don't think I need to tweak my meds, but a few more anti anxiety might be nice.
For now, I'm going to go and put on some pants, and get ready for work, and maybe have some more coffee. You all have a wonderful Saturday!
Yesterday was a mostly quiet day. I had work, then did nothing for the rest of the night, but went to bed early. Which was a good thing for the aforementioned cat antics.
Today, I have work, then a game, then we're probably going to go over to the storage unit to drop some boxes off, then to Savers to donate some clothes, then a game at 7. I've got bubble wrap coming today, so tomorrow, I'll probably start wrapping some of the small breakables we want to keep, so we can get that done. Most of our stuff probably can't be packed til closer, like clothes and electronics, so even starting now doesn't mean that the last few weeks won't be insanely busy.
Has anyone bought anything off Wayfair? I found a couch on there that I flat out love, but I'm leery about buying something I haven't sat on. On the other hand, they're willing to finance me, so that's helpful.
I told
poisontaster that I never thought that if I started nesting, I would gravitate to the "Modern Farmhouse" genre of furniture. Turns out deep down, I am a basic bitch. See? I'm trying to figure out placement of things, and I'm having trouble. That's the one downside of the show unit not being empty. I couldn't really imagine my stuff in there, because it was furnished already.
I've been in a weird mood lately. Since the lease was signed, and definitely since it was countersigned. I'm not quite sure what to do with it. I can't even really name it. Some weird combination of sad, anxious, excited, and angry. It mostly just feels unsettled.
I'm sad to be leaving the house I've spent thirty+ years in, definitely. Some days I felt like the house personally had it out for us, but overall, it's been okay, and I'm definitely going to miss the deer who sleep in our backyard. I'm anxious because I can't quite see in my head what our new life will be like. I don't know why I'm angry. Maybe because capitalism says I have to make this decision, because my parents were poor and did the reverse mortgage. Maybe I'm mad at dad for dying, or maybe I'm mad that he didn't die before we'd all broken ourselves taking care of him for two years. Maybe I'm mad at my sister that she's just kind of sitting back and letting Jess and I take point. But I'm also excited because this is a new chapter, and a chance to reinvent ourselves.
I think I need to just cry about it be done with it, maybe? I have an appointment with my psych on Monday, so I'll mention it to him if it's still a there. I don't think I need to tweak my meds, but a few more anti anxiety might be nice.
For now, I'm going to go and put on some pants, and get ready for work, and maybe have some more coffee. You all have a wonderful Saturday!
