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beansideYesterday was boring, with hints of emotional upheaval. The boring wasn't a shock. Mondays, the markets never come in early. My California/Portland finally came in around 3:55. I leave at 4:30. And the Chicago didn't come in before I left. I got California partially done and will finish it off this morning.
The mild emotional upheaval...After a lot of discussion, I decided to apply for the job in Sweden. I don't actually expect to get it. I'm sure they'll want to hire someone with experience for their shiny newly renovated store. But, it'll be a good experience. Plus, I think I need to. It meant a long, emotionally fraught discussion with Jess, of course, but they're supportive. In the unlikely event that I got an in person interview, I might get an all expenses paid trip to Sweden out of it, though it's more likely that it would be virtual in the time of Covid.
The job doesn't close until 1/30, so it's going to be an apply and forget it for a while.
I feel like I'm being incredibly selfish even applying, and a little guilty. But I also feel like it might be important. If I get an interview, it would be a boost to my confidence, and it feels like a little crack in the cage door, as Jess put it. A reminder that I won't always be trapped here. I need that.
Dad was especially grumbly last night, which is always fun. He doesn't like anything I cook, which is annoying. Tonight will be steak subs, which hopefully will meet his approval. He drives Jess especially crazy, because he always seems to pick at me, more than her or my sister. I know he's old and hates it, but damn.
Okay, I've rambled enough. Have a good Tuesday, y'all!
The mild emotional upheaval...After a lot of discussion, I decided to apply for the job in Sweden. I don't actually expect to get it. I'm sure they'll want to hire someone with experience for their shiny newly renovated store. But, it'll be a good experience. Plus, I think I need to. It meant a long, emotionally fraught discussion with Jess, of course, but they're supportive. In the unlikely event that I got an in person interview, I might get an all expenses paid trip to Sweden out of it, though it's more likely that it would be virtual in the time of Covid.
The job doesn't close until 1/30, so it's going to be an apply and forget it for a while.
I feel like I'm being incredibly selfish even applying, and a little guilty. But I also feel like it might be important. If I get an interview, it would be a boost to my confidence, and it feels like a little crack in the cage door, as Jess put it. A reminder that I won't always be trapped here. I need that.
Dad was especially grumbly last night, which is always fun. He doesn't like anything I cook, which is annoying. Tonight will be steak subs, which hopefully will meet his approval. He drives Jess especially crazy, because he always seems to pick at me, more than her or my sister. I know he's old and hates it, but damn.
Okay, I've rambled enough. Have a good Tuesday, y'all!
