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beansideI saw a cartoon this morning that said "My need to stay informed is warring with my need to stay sane." I feel it. The Cheeto is being even more erratic than usual, and it's playing hell with my anxiety. I want to fast forward four weeks, so I can deal with the outcome, whether it's good or bad. I just need it over. But, alas, this is not going to happen. Instead, I will suck it up and try to watch my doomscroll (I'm trying, but damn, it's hard).
When Cheeto talks about not being afraid of Covid, I want to reach through the screen and just slap him. It makes me so angry. He got this because he couldn't be assed to take basic precautions, and he had the best care in the world. The rest of us muddled through and still aren't back to normal, and I hate him for it. Every word that comes out of his mouth is like a punch to the people who masked, and sanitized, and still fucking got it. I'll be angry about that until my lungs go back to normal, and at this point, I don't think that's going to happen.
Okay, enough dumping of feelings. It's not making me feel any better, so I will stop. I have an appointment with a psych tomorrow, so I may ask about an anti-anxiety med. My shrink is out on medical leave, so this is a new person, and I have a nervous about it. I like my shrink and I hope she's okay. I mean, obviously she's not, or she wouldn't be on medical leave, but I hope she's okay in the end.
Work today is shaping up to be a big boring unless a project gets dumped on me. This is unlikely, since I had two dropped on my yesterday afternoon.
I had my Performance Evaluation for the year. HR decided that because of the pandemic and it's accompanying challenges, everyone got meets expectations this year, with an accompanying 3% raise. My boss had nice things to say about me, and that was good to hear. Apparently, it's been noticed that I do things without being asked, and take on any project, no matter how big, while still getting my regular markets done in the allotted time. I got a fairly glowing write up, all in all. I think, possibly, if they hadn't gone for meets, I might have gotten an exceeds, which is fairly unheard of.
When Cheeto talks about not being afraid of Covid, I want to reach through the screen and just slap him. It makes me so angry. He got this because he couldn't be assed to take basic precautions, and he had the best care in the world. The rest of us muddled through and still aren't back to normal, and I hate him for it. Every word that comes out of his mouth is like a punch to the people who masked, and sanitized, and still fucking got it. I'll be angry about that until my lungs go back to normal, and at this point, I don't think that's going to happen.
Okay, enough dumping of feelings. It's not making me feel any better, so I will stop. I have an appointment with a psych tomorrow, so I may ask about an anti-anxiety med. My shrink is out on medical leave, so this is a new person, and I have a nervous about it. I like my shrink and I hope she's okay. I mean, obviously she's not, or she wouldn't be on medical leave, but I hope she's okay in the end.
Work today is shaping up to be a big boring unless a project gets dumped on me. This is unlikely, since I had two dropped on my yesterday afternoon.
I had my Performance Evaluation for the year. HR decided that because of the pandemic and it's accompanying challenges, everyone got meets expectations this year, with an accompanying 3% raise. My boss had nice things to say about me, and that was good to hear. Apparently, it's been noticed that I do things without being asked, and take on any project, no matter how big, while still getting my regular markets done in the allotted time. I got a fairly glowing write up, all in all. I think, possibly, if they hadn't gone for meets, I might have gotten an exceeds, which is fairly unheard of.
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Date: 2020-10-07 10:08 pm (UTC)glad you got a good eval, and will see a bit of reward. that's great!