What the hell?

[beanside]

So, the last two days, in addition to recovering from the flu, I think I'm finally starting to recover from the year. It took sliding to the edge of the map, but I think I've turned the bend. As Jess pointed out, this year has hit me in three of my biggest identity centers, and it really threw me. I lost my sense of worth in my work. I lost my sense of worth as a family caretaker when grandmom died, and I lost my religious worth when the coven split.

This year, I've been pulled in on myself like a turtle, trying to re-make who I am, and what I've come up with is that I was just fucking fine with who I was. So, with judicious pushing from above, I'm over this.

What that brings up is that it's time to dig in and be who I want to be, and that's an author. Not just of fanfic, but of kickass original sci-fi/queer fiction. So, I don't know if anyone (HA!) remembers a little Laurel K. Hamilton knockoff named Ragnarok, but we're going back.

New cast in some places, new story in some places, and a lot of revamping to get rid of the LKH cooties, but the same soul. So, who wants to be on the filter? (Cari, you get no choice. Sorry.)

[Poll #1472110]

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Finding your center when you've lost it is one of the hardest and most rewarding things you can do for you. I'm glad you were able to find your way.

I doubled up and said yes to both of you lovely ladies on the filter :)