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I've been really struggling this week. My brain has not been good. Part of it was due to medications, because there was one that Jess and I both take, and I'd been giving it to them instead of taking it. Turns out, it was doing a lot of the heavy lifting in my brain chemistry, so I restarted it yesterday, and hopefully that'll help some.
It's just been really rough. I'm anxious and sad, and I don't know how to fix it. The dog has to go to the vet tomorrow for shots, and he's going to be all mopey and crying, and I am dreading it, because it's going to make me cry too.
The cat was off her food yesterday and hasn't eaten a ton this morning, and I'm freaking out. Because we have no money if she's sick to get her treated.
I hate this. I hate everything about it. I hate not having something to do, I hate being afraid, I hate that my brain chemistry is conspiring to make everything worse.
It's just not been good for me.
I need to get my anxiety meds filled today, because I need to settle the fuck down. I've gotta go see Dad today, so that's something to get me out of the house.
He'll be coming home in 9 days, and I'm anxious about that, too (of course). We'll have to find a new normal, while I'm still trying to find a new normal with the job, and I think it'll be a little tough.
Hopefully, the pills do their job and start fixing my brain chemistry soon. I'm starting to annoy myself.
I missed this yesterday, so today I shall do two!
1. My bed. It's soft, and fluffy and I love snuggling under the covers.
2. My spouse. We've been together for 24 years now, and I love them so much. It hasn't always been easy, but knowing that they're in my corner makes things so much better. I'm so lucky to have them in my life.
It's just been really rough. I'm anxious and sad, and I don't know how to fix it. The dog has to go to the vet tomorrow for shots, and he's going to be all mopey and crying, and I am dreading it, because it's going to make me cry too.
The cat was off her food yesterday and hasn't eaten a ton this morning, and I'm freaking out. Because we have no money if she's sick to get her treated.
I hate this. I hate everything about it. I hate not having something to do, I hate being afraid, I hate that my brain chemistry is conspiring to make everything worse.
It's just not been good for me.
I need to get my anxiety meds filled today, because I need to settle the fuck down. I've gotta go see Dad today, so that's something to get me out of the house.
He'll be coming home in 9 days, and I'm anxious about that, too (of course). We'll have to find a new normal, while I'm still trying to find a new normal with the job, and I think it'll be a little tough.
Hopefully, the pills do their job and start fixing my brain chemistry soon. I'm starting to annoy myself.
I missed this yesterday, so today I shall do two!
1. My bed. It's soft, and fluffy and I love snuggling under the covers.
2. My spouse. We've been together for 24 years now, and I love them so much. It hasn't always been easy, but knowing that they're in my corner makes things so much better. I'm so lucky to have them in my life.
