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I swear, when I'm stuck on a song lyric for my subject line, Leonard Cohen is always my go to. My back is a bit extra pissed today, so this should make the PT and Home Health Aid a lot of fun. Also, I'm scheduled to go get my hair cut at 12, and I'm not sure how well the chair is going to go, but oh well. My hair has gotten floppy and it's time to get it trimmed short again.
Yesterday, not at all shockingly, M was out, so I had delivery updates. Which isn't horrible, I just was looking forward to a nice quiet day without having to tell people what to do. But alas. The first half of the day was the normal, loud and difficult to concentrate thanks to my coworkers. But then, they all decided to fuck off and leave at 12:30pm to go get tacos. 60% of my team just...left. I felt bad for my manager. When he touched base with me later in the day, he was so over them. He probably communicates more than he strictly speaking should with me, but he wants me to know about the hard parts of being a TL. Not that I'm going to be a TL, apparently.
Anyway, the mass exodus made things a lot more quiet for the afternoon. I got all my shit done and the Updates were at the point they needed to be when I left, so it was a good work day. Sunday, I will have a lot of shit to do, as the OD who likes me sent an enormous file of shit to be cancelled, so that's always fun. Also, my manager is out on Sunday, so I'll be in charge of finding people to work it. Again, totally not my job, but it needs to get done, so I'll piss people off.
As usual post office, I'm extra sore this morning. Today, in addition to the haircut, we have Physical Therapy and Home Health coming in for dad. Whoo. Once we're done that, we're going to snuggle up on the couch and watch the rest of Transformers: Rise of the Beasts. Then, tonight, we're going out for a nice dinner at the Cajun Hibachi place. We were thinking about BBQ or Chinese, but the lure of this place's po'boys was too strong.
Tomorrow, my sister is going to be out after 12, so we probably won't be doing a whole lot. Maybe something after she gets home, but I feel like that's probably going to be late, so maybe not. I want her to have a social life, but it makes it difficult. My weekend is Friday-Saturday, and we're stuck watching dad all day Friday, so we can't go out til around 6:30 when she gets home, and if she has something planned on Saturday, that's basically no weekend for us.
When Dad was doing the hospital roulette, I wasn't thinking this would be a problem for very long, but now he's doing pretty well, and I just don't know. The last antibiotic really seemed to help him. It's just...difficult. I resent having to give up so much of my life to take care of him. It's not his fault, but I'm so tired of the grind, and I know Jess has to be too, since they're doing more of it than me. And that makes me get short with him, which makes me feel like the worst person. It just feels like we're trapped, and the only way out is when he passes.
It doesn't help that I'm feeling trapped in my job, too. I can't seem to get a promotion to save my life. I know I'm damn good. I know the business up and down, but no one seems to want to give me a chance. So I'm just...stuck. I've had the same position for the last three years, with minimal pay raises. I need something new. I've been putting out resumes, but I haven't had any bites. If I can do it, I'd rather stay with IKEA, just for the benefits and PTO, but I don't know.
It's just a lot, with no changes in sight. I'm going to make the best of it. Thank god for TTRPGs. Without them, I'd be seriously fucked. They're my little escapes every week, where I get to socialize with people I actually like. And Jess and I have started making little escapes. Just taking a couple of hours out of the house now and then.
Okay, gotta get dad up before PT comes at 9. Everyone have an excellent Friday!
Yesterday, not at all shockingly, M was out, so I had delivery updates. Which isn't horrible, I just was looking forward to a nice quiet day without having to tell people what to do. But alas. The first half of the day was the normal, loud and difficult to concentrate thanks to my coworkers. But then, they all decided to fuck off and leave at 12:30pm to go get tacos. 60% of my team just...left. I felt bad for my manager. When he touched base with me later in the day, he was so over them. He probably communicates more than he strictly speaking should with me, but he wants me to know about the hard parts of being a TL. Not that I'm going to be a TL, apparently.
Anyway, the mass exodus made things a lot more quiet for the afternoon. I got all my shit done and the Updates were at the point they needed to be when I left, so it was a good work day. Sunday, I will have a lot of shit to do, as the OD who likes me sent an enormous file of shit to be cancelled, so that's always fun. Also, my manager is out on Sunday, so I'll be in charge of finding people to work it. Again, totally not my job, but it needs to get done, so I'll piss people off.
As usual post office, I'm extra sore this morning. Today, in addition to the haircut, we have Physical Therapy and Home Health coming in for dad. Whoo. Once we're done that, we're going to snuggle up on the couch and watch the rest of Transformers: Rise of the Beasts. Then, tonight, we're going out for a nice dinner at the Cajun Hibachi place. We were thinking about BBQ or Chinese, but the lure of this place's po'boys was too strong.
Tomorrow, my sister is going to be out after 12, so we probably won't be doing a whole lot. Maybe something after she gets home, but I feel like that's probably going to be late, so maybe not. I want her to have a social life, but it makes it difficult. My weekend is Friday-Saturday, and we're stuck watching dad all day Friday, so we can't go out til around 6:30 when she gets home, and if she has something planned on Saturday, that's basically no weekend for us.
When Dad was doing the hospital roulette, I wasn't thinking this would be a problem for very long, but now he's doing pretty well, and I just don't know. The last antibiotic really seemed to help him. It's just...difficult. I resent having to give up so much of my life to take care of him. It's not his fault, but I'm so tired of the grind, and I know Jess has to be too, since they're doing more of it than me. And that makes me get short with him, which makes me feel like the worst person. It just feels like we're trapped, and the only way out is when he passes.
It doesn't help that I'm feeling trapped in my job, too. I can't seem to get a promotion to save my life. I know I'm damn good. I know the business up and down, but no one seems to want to give me a chance. So I'm just...stuck. I've had the same position for the last three years, with minimal pay raises. I need something new. I've been putting out resumes, but I haven't had any bites. If I can do it, I'd rather stay with IKEA, just for the benefits and PTO, but I don't know.
It's just a lot, with no changes in sight. I'm going to make the best of it. Thank god for TTRPGs. Without them, I'd be seriously fucked. They're my little escapes every week, where I get to socialize with people I actually like. And Jess and I have started making little escapes. Just taking a couple of hours out of the house now and then.
Okay, gotta get dad up before PT comes at 9. Everyone have an excellent Friday!
