Fic: As I Am

Oct. 30th, 2006 09:03 am
beanside: (Jeff/Chad)
[personal profile] beanside
Title: As I Am
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: CMM/JDM
Disclaimer: I don't know them. I doubt they know each other, much less are carrying on a torrid mating dance.
A/N: Yeah, it's still going, like the freaking Energizer Bunny of crackfic. Previous parts can be found here.



“Jesus, baby, your mouth,” Jeff moaned, fingers sliding through short hair, fighting to pet, not clutch. “Going to fuck you so hard.”

A lithe body slid up his, warm lips pressing at his collarbone. “Oh you think?” Chad purred, teeth grazing along Jeff’s throat, nipping just right.

This time, Jeff let his fingers tighten in the hair, pulling Chad’s head back with a swift violence that made him gasp. “I think,” Jeff agreed, leaning up to bite at the soft skin, feeling Chad shudder against him.

“Yeah,” Chad gasped. “Okay, I BRIIIING!”

Jeff stared at Chad for a moment, trying to decipher the sound that had just come out of those lips. Then, it came again, and he sat up, arms empty, instinctively reaching for the jangling phone. “Fuck me,” Jeff groaned, glancing at the clock. Six thirty. In the goddamn morning. Jesus.

“Hello?”

“Hi, sweetie!” his mother’s voice chirped at him.

“Oh, hey mom. How’re you? Everything okay?”

“Of course it is. Wait, is it too early over there to be calling? Did I screw up my times again?”

“It’s okay. I have to get up for an early call anyway,” Jeff lied. “ So, What’s doing?”

“You never told me you were friends with that nice boy from One Tree Hill,” his mother said coyly.

“What?” For a moment, Jeff wondered if he’d actually woken up, or if this was part of the dream. If so, he was never doing shots with Gina ever again.

“You know, Chad Michael Murray.”

“You watch One Tree Hill, mom?” Jeff asked.

“Yes, dear. He’s such a nice boy, so respectful. I like him.”

“On the show?” It had to be the dream. Because otherwise, this conversation made no goddamn sense.

“No, when he was here this evening.”

Jeff pinched his leg hard. “Um. He was there?”

“Yes, dear. Keep up, now. He said that when he talked to you that you had mentioned worrying that Bisou was going to be too much for your father and I, and that she wouldn’t get exercise enough. So, he took her out for a run.”

And yeah, that made no damn sense at all. “He took her for a run?”

“She was so happy, Jeff. He said he’d try to come back every few days, since he’ll be filming in Vancouver. He’s such a nice boy. A little on the young side,” she added.

“Mom,” Jeff groaned.

“Still. He seems really sweet. And Bisou obviously likes him, and she’s a good judge of character.”

“Mom, it’s not like that.”

“Okay, I’m just saying. If it was, I’d approve,” she murmured, laughing softly at his embarrassment. “So, how’s work going?”

He relaxed a little, appreciating the change in topics and talked about the role and Dublin, and his coworkers.

By the time he hung up, his alarm was only half an hour from going off. Not worth going back to sleep, even if he could. And really. Not happening.

What the hell? Chad had driven two hours to take his dog for a walk? The hell.

Fragments of his dream came floating back, with a predictable effect on his body. Goddamn it. “This isn’t funny,” he informed his cock. “You’re not the boss of me, got it?”

It remained unimpressed, his brain choosing that moment to remember the image of Chad’s lips stretched obscenely around his cock, defiant gaze meeting Jeff’s.

“Fuck. I’ve lost my mind,” he muttered, hand sliding down to cup his cock through his boxers.

He let his eyes drift closed, tugging the waistband down. He would not think of Chad. Think about the redhead in the bar last night, yeah. She was hot. And had a great…personality. She would look amazing, spread out on the bed while he fucked her slow—

And Chad moaned low in his throat, arching back, begging Jeff to fuck him hard, cock slick with precome—

No. What about the steward from the British Air flight? He wouldn’t complain about Jeff’s hands on his body, stroking—

And landing with a hard slap to Chad’s ass. God, that boy just begged for someone to come and break him to saddle—

Fine. Fuck it. This wasn’t working. “This doesn’t mean anything,” Jeff informed his cock.

He closed his eyes again, let his mind wander. His hand slid back down, stroking himself gently.

Chad, naked, hands bound in front of him, glaring at Jeff, chin tilted stubbornly. Jeff stepping up, fingers brushing over his cheek gently, until Chad jerked away with a little growl.

Then, Jeff thought, he wouldn’t be so gentle. His fingers would curl around that chin tight, tilting it up, squeezing until Chad gasped, then sliding his fingers into that sinful damned mouth. Chad of course, would bite down, his tongue stroking along Jeff’s digits, sucking until his cheeks hollowed.

Then, he’d let go, undo his jeans and let them hang low on his hips, watch Chad’s tongue dart out, licking his lips at the sight. He’d grab that chin again, hold him still with one hand, and grab his cock with his other, rub it along those lips, paint them with his precome, mark Chad as his slut. His.

Then, when Chad started to relax, he’d slide his belt free of the loops, double it up, watch Chad’s eyes widen, watch him shiver.

He’d shiver even harder when Jeff slid it along his spine, a brush of leather on skin. Then, Jeff would bring it around so that Chad could see it, let it glide over his cheekbone, let him smell the leather.

Jeff’s hand sped up on his cock, imagining Chad’s lips brushing the belt, tongue darting out to curl around the worn leather.

It would make such a great noise against his skin, the sharp crack almost covering the little gasp, the yelp of pain. Red welts would stand out against Chad’s pale skin by the time he’d finished three strokes, and he would step back, look at Chad, at the shudders wracking his body, the cock standing at attention, head wet and shiny.

Jeff moaned, strokes faltering as he imagined Chad’s eyes, defiant even through the tears he couldn’t hold back—

His orgasm almost came as a surprise, leaving him shivering and sticky, staring at the quaint canopy of his bed.

“Well, that was fucked up,” Jeff muttered, grabbing a tissue and getting cleaned up.

Date: 2006-10-30 02:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mcee.livejournal.com
adlfkghad'gyklgh'asldfktha'lgkhehrt'ldfkgdfg!

Date: 2006-10-31 08:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*laugh Thanks!
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Date: 2006-10-31 08:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
He is! Chad should help him clean up. *g* Thank you!

Date: 2006-10-30 03:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] azewewish.livejournal.com
Jeff's cock should be the boss of him WAY more often, if you ask me. *g*

Date: 2006-10-31 08:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
I agree! Who needs those silly brain cells to do the work? *grin*

Date: 2006-10-31 08:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] azewewish.livejournal.com
I'm sure Chad would prefer it that way. *g*

Date: 2006-10-30 04:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] iseult-variante.livejournal.com
sdjhfoishdjfshf/;wa/skdjfh *dies*

(um, hi! I just found this series, and OMG. I would never have thought of this pairing, but it's better than PIE. really, really HOTT PIE.)

Date: 2006-10-31 08:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
Hi! I'm glad you like it. I woudn't have thought of them either, but somehow...they kinda work. Go figure.

Anyhow, thanks!

Date: 2006-10-30 04:45 pm (UTC)
ext_5650: Six of my favourite characters (Default)
From: [identity profile] phantomas.livejournal.com
Love the way he's talking to his cock...*G*

*makes a hola in your honour*
Mmm. Hot. :D

Date: 2006-10-31 08:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*laugh* Why thank you. Glad you enjoyed. And really, isn't having conversations with genitalia such a guy thing to do? I just could totally see it somehow.

Date: 2006-10-31 08:29 pm (UTC)
ext_5650: Six of my favourite characters (Default)
From: [identity profile] phantomas.livejournal.com
Oh, it is! I had conversations with guys' genitalia myself!

Erm. *G*
*bats eyelashes*

Date: 2006-10-31 08:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*laugh* If you say so. I can't say I've had discussions with anyone's but my own. And that's usually "Is that a cramp? Oh, you sonofabitch, I'm wearing white pants. You'd better not even think it."

Date: 2006-10-31 08:59 pm (UTC)
ext_5650: Six of my favourite characters (Default)
From: [identity profile] phantomas.livejournal.com
These days, I'm all about "C'mon, you can do it, this can be a month like any other before, no need to change now, you can have all the cramps that you like..."

*G*

And usually?
The best conversations do happen with the downstairs brain than the upstairs ones :D

Date: 2006-10-30 06:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] topaz119.livejournal.com
Ok, I think I'm officially addicted. I'm loving this Jeff, who, like Jensen said, is a good guy, but not always a nice guy, and can't wait to see what happens next.

Date: 2006-10-31 08:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*adds another to the 'people corrupted' list* Yay!

I'm glad you're enjoying it. Thanks!

Date: 2006-10-30 08:04 pm (UTC)
varadia: (Default)
From: [personal profile] varadia
Oh, man, Jeff's mom, and then the dream, and I just--

*incoherent*

This series is so lovely and wonderful and full of things that push my buttons.

*happy*

Date: 2006-10-31 08:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*laugh* I'm glad it's working so well for you. *grin*

Date: 2006-10-30 10:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] eloise-bright.livejournal.com
Damn you for making me read Chad Michael Murray. It's not fair. I like my Jeff with Jensen and/or Jared, and I detest CMM. Except when you write him.

This part in particular was hot. I love your Jeff very very much. I need him to be out of Ireland and back in Seattle/Vancouver/LA. Even though I love that he's filming in my country. *sighs at thought of JDM in same country as me*

More please? With a stern and gravelly-voiced Jeff. *g*

Date: 2006-10-31 08:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*laugh I'm sorry...except not really.

I'm glad you like it so much. i'll try to get gravelly-voiced Jeff to put Chad on his knees at the earliest convienence. *grin* Thank you!

Date: 2006-10-30 10:31 pm (UTC)
embroiderama: (JDM - giddyup)
From: [personal profile] embroiderama
OMGOMGOMG HOT!
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OMGOMGOMG HOT! <break to the saddle</i> *dies*

<i>He’s such a nice boy. A little on the young side,” she added.

“Mom,” Jeff groaned.</i>

LOL! Jeff's mom is a hoot here.

Date: 2006-10-31 08:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*laugh* And you even have the perfect Jeff icon for it!

I kind of love a woman who called her son after the Grey's finale and cried at him for ten minutes. I had to include Momma Morgan. *grin*

Glad you liked. *g*

Date: 2006-10-30 10:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] iwwfw.livejournal.com
I now have this image of JDM talking to his cock -- not just talking to it but reprimanding it, looking down, finger-wagging and all. That image and the last one of Jeff all sweaty and naked in a twee Irish bed are all I'm going to be able to think about all evening now. It's scary what your fic can do to my brain.

Oh and, guh! The porn? Totally hot.

Date: 2006-10-31 08:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*grin* Glad I could give you some amusing mental images.

Thanks!

Date: 2006-10-30 10:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] saintawesome.livejournal.com
I think you broke me. This is the best thing ever. Ever. Ever ever ever.

JDM/CMM OTP!1!!

Date: 2006-10-31 08:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*laugh* Oh, lord.

I don't know about OTP, but they're kinda cute together. *grin*

Date: 2006-10-31 12:01 am (UTC)
poisontaster: character Wen Qing from The Untamed (Papa Winchester)
From: [personal profile] poisontaster
*beams* Jeff! You kinky bastard!

“This isn’t funny,” he informed his cock. “You’re not the boss of me, got it?”
Oh. That's so CUTE that he thinks so.

God, that boy just begged for someone to come and break him to saddle—
'kay! That'll be me in my bunk, kthxbi!

Date: 2006-10-31 08:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*giggle* He is a kinky little bastard. But I kinda like him like that.

*snerk* You do realize that you're getting hot and bothered over Chad, right?

*giggle*

Date: 2006-10-31 09:01 pm (UTC)
poisontaster: character Wen Qing from The Untamed (Eye Roll)
From: [personal profile] poisontaster
Correction: I am NOT perving on The Chad; I am perving on JEFF perving on the Chad. Jeff's voice in my head saying that about ANYONE would have the same reaction. So you keep your CHAD. Ha! :p

Date: 2006-10-31 12:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] moosesal.livejournal.com
*ahem* What Jeff said. ;-) This hurts me, yet I continue to read. Of course, my masochism's not exactly a secret.

Date: 2006-10-31 08:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
Awww, baby. Don' be like that. *grin* You know you love it.

and by "it," I totally mean "Chad."

Date: 2006-10-31 09:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] moosesal.livejournal.com
I mean no such thing. Stop toturing me. ;-)

Date: 2006-10-31 02:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] robanybody.livejournal.com
This is all that made today worth getting out of bed. I am so in love. ♥

Date: 2006-10-31 08:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*cuddle* Then my work here is done. *grin*

Mwah!

Date: 2006-10-31 05:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shotofjack.livejournal.com
Well, that was fucked up
Yes, but in the good way......

(Still hating on The Chad but loving your fic)

Date: 2006-10-31 08:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com
*laugh* Awww...

I'm glad you liked it!

Date: 2006-10-31 10:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] coiledsoul.livejournal.com
damn you.

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