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beansideIt's Friday! You've almost made it to the weekend!! For me, of course, it's also game night! It's actually a weekend full of games, which I'm hoping will be a lot of fun for all involved!
I have made a new decree as it relates to dad. I refuse to keep working my ass off to get him up during my lunch break, only to have him want to go to bed almost immediately. Yesterday, I had a super early second break. One that meant he would only have to stay up about an hour. He agreed. Then, five minutes later, as I'm trying to eat my sandwich before the end of my break (the first part having been used to get his ass up) he looks at me and says "when can I go back?" I pointed out that he said he'd stay up til my break and he says "I changed my mind." I'm sitting there eating, and his selfish ass insists on being put back. So, I'm not doing it anymore. I'm tired of breaking myself for him. I feel like Jess and I are doing all the work, and he's not willing to do anything. So I'm not doing it any more. If we have a game, I'll try getting him up during the day, but otherwise, he can wait until my sister is home and I'm done work. I need that 40 minute break, and I'm tired of losing it so he can pretend that he's actually doing something.
I feel like I'm being the worst daughter, but I'm to the point where I actively dislike and resent him. When he throws his little temper tantrum, it pisses me off so badly, and then I yell at him or get short and I feel bad. It's just a no win for me, so I'm opting out.
I won't be able to do it when I get the surgery anyway, so why not start early?
I am very sore today. I assume I slept in a position my body didn't like, and it's telling me so loud and clear.
The expensive pillow I bought for my shoulder does not work. It's simultaneously too big and too small. The arm length is too long. My elbow doesn't bottom out in it. But the arm circumference is way too small. It digs in to the flab of my arm, and the velcro rubs unpleasantly. I'm debating between sending it back or reselling it. I'll probably resell it, because I'm too lazy to send it back.
This weekend, I may try sleeping with my sling, just to try to get used to it. The Reddit community is all about how long they needed to sleep in a recliner, but as I have no recliner, I better be ready.
Hopefully work is a little slower today, because I ended up doing 60 calls yesterday. Usually, Fridays are a little quiter, but it's been a weird week.
Okay, time for me to get myself together and actually eat something and take some pills. Everyone have an excellent Friday!
I have made a new decree as it relates to dad. I refuse to keep working my ass off to get him up during my lunch break, only to have him want to go to bed almost immediately. Yesterday, I had a super early second break. One that meant he would only have to stay up about an hour. He agreed. Then, five minutes later, as I'm trying to eat my sandwich before the end of my break (the first part having been used to get his ass up) he looks at me and says "when can I go back?" I pointed out that he said he'd stay up til my break and he says "I changed my mind." I'm sitting there eating, and his selfish ass insists on being put back. So, I'm not doing it anymore. I'm tired of breaking myself for him. I feel like Jess and I are doing all the work, and he's not willing to do anything. So I'm not doing it any more. If we have a game, I'll try getting him up during the day, but otherwise, he can wait until my sister is home and I'm done work. I need that 40 minute break, and I'm tired of losing it so he can pretend that he's actually doing something.
I feel like I'm being the worst daughter, but I'm to the point where I actively dislike and resent him. When he throws his little temper tantrum, it pisses me off so badly, and then I yell at him or get short and I feel bad. It's just a no win for me, so I'm opting out.
I won't be able to do it when I get the surgery anyway, so why not start early?
I am very sore today. I assume I slept in a position my body didn't like, and it's telling me so loud and clear.
The expensive pillow I bought for my shoulder does not work. It's simultaneously too big and too small. The arm length is too long. My elbow doesn't bottom out in it. But the arm circumference is way too small. It digs in to the flab of my arm, and the velcro rubs unpleasantly. I'm debating between sending it back or reselling it. I'll probably resell it, because I'm too lazy to send it back.
This weekend, I may try sleeping with my sling, just to try to get used to it. The Reddit community is all about how long they needed to sleep in a recliner, but as I have no recliner, I better be ready.
Hopefully work is a little slower today, because I ended up doing 60 calls yesterday. Usually, Fridays are a little quiter, but it's been a weird week.
Okay, time for me to get myself together and actually eat something and take some pills. Everyone have an excellent Friday!
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Date: 2024-06-15 02:45 am (UTC)and it's not as if he's not able to manage his behavior better; I think he's just gotten spoiled and is acting bratty. not sure how much boredom comes into it, but sticking to an agreement made should be doable, even if he is bored