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beansideIt's Saturday, it's a busy weekend. I've got to go take the doggo for grooming, come back, get Dad up, pick up the dog, put dad back, and then we've got a game! Tomorrow, I have my eye appointment, and then I can start looking at glasses. I desperately need a pair of computer glasses. My neck constantly aches from the way I have to angle it to look at the computer screen when I'm working. I mean, my neck is prone to hurting anyway, but this definitely isn't going to help.
Yesterday was again a somewhat rough day. Dad seemed a little out of it, and I was thinking we were heading to the hospital. His nurse came over and didn't seem concerned, so we'll give it a while and see. All the fuss led to us moving last night's game later, and then when the nurse didn't show up until 8, Jess decided not to play. It was very frustrating, and I'm really unhappy at the moment. I'm trying not to resent him, but I 100% do. I am resenting the fuck out of how much of our time and energy is just sucked dry.
He seems to be back to his normal now, where he's not quite an asshole, but not overly nice either. It definitely makes the resentment worse, because I feel like I'm not even busting my ass for a nice person.
Jess is taking the brunt of it, which I hate. Really, I just hate everything about the current situation. While I've been training, Jess has had to sit in with him all days so that if he needs something, he doesn't yell for it at top volume while I'm on a zoom call.
Philadelphia is next weekend, and I'm not sure it's going to happen. I mean, we'll go up to Philly, but it may be a day trip, because I don't know if an overnight is feasible.
I'm angry. Fairly constantly angry about how much the situation takes out of both of us. We're in bed by 8:30 except on game nights, just trying to prepare for the next day.
The bright spot is D&D, but I've had to cancel or move 4 games in the last three weeks because of him.
I know we're just in a rough patch, but after two months of peace while he was in the rehab, it's a lot.
Okay, going to go consider pants and get this day started. Everyone have an amazing Saturday!
Yesterday was again a somewhat rough day. Dad seemed a little out of it, and I was thinking we were heading to the hospital. His nurse came over and didn't seem concerned, so we'll give it a while and see. All the fuss led to us moving last night's game later, and then when the nurse didn't show up until 8, Jess decided not to play. It was very frustrating, and I'm really unhappy at the moment. I'm trying not to resent him, but I 100% do. I am resenting the fuck out of how much of our time and energy is just sucked dry.
He seems to be back to his normal now, where he's not quite an asshole, but not overly nice either. It definitely makes the resentment worse, because I feel like I'm not even busting my ass for a nice person.
Jess is taking the brunt of it, which I hate. Really, I just hate everything about the current situation. While I've been training, Jess has had to sit in with him all days so that if he needs something, he doesn't yell for it at top volume while I'm on a zoom call.
Philadelphia is next weekend, and I'm not sure it's going to happen. I mean, we'll go up to Philly, but it may be a day trip, because I don't know if an overnight is feasible.
I'm angry. Fairly constantly angry about how much the situation takes out of both of us. We're in bed by 8:30 except on game nights, just trying to prepare for the next day.
The bright spot is D&D, but I've had to cancel or move 4 games in the last three weeks because of him.
I know we're just in a rough patch, but after two months of peace while he was in the rehab, it's a lot.
Okay, going to go consider pants and get this day started. Everyone have an amazing Saturday!
