When I get stuck for a subject line, I always go to Leonard Cohen. And Hallelujah is a classic for a reason. The last two verses are the ones that resonated with me more than the ones normally sung. I'm not particularly religious these days, but to me there is something sacred in those words. I wish more artists would cover those verses. Not in a God way, unless it's Bo Burnham's version? "Not going to give you love just because you want me to. If you want love than that love's gotta come from you." And that's what I try to do with my life. Do I feel fondly towards everyone in the world? Fuck no. I'm cynical and tired. But when I interact with someone, I try to extend them the grace I would want.
Like at work. People don't call in because things are awesome. They call in because something is wrong and they need a scan to see what it is. And that's horrible. But the call itself doesn't have to be. They can talk to someone who is kind and personable, and who will try to help. It doesn't matter how I feel, I'm going to be cheerful and and offer them the chance to interact with someone who will be kind.
This musing brought to you by my interview yesterday where one of the questions was a point blank "Why should it be you?" I'll admit, that one threw me for a moment. I recovered and gave a pretty good answer, but for a moment, I had to think. Why me?
I think the interview went pretty well. I gave the best answers I could, and got a few "I really like that."
There was one answer, about what did I feel was important about interacting with my team. And I said compassion and kindness, but surety. You need to speak with a confidence so they will have faith in your answers. And interestingly, the three women nodded vehemently, but the lone guy was like "It's okay to say you're not sure." And I could see all three women thinking "Sure, if you have male privilege, you can do that and not get eaten alive."
Later, he called me to check in to see how we were doing post dad because I had a couple of badly scored calls around that time. He said he wanted me to know that I did a great job in the interview.
Of course, I spent the rest of the night picking apart the whole interview and trying to decide what exactly he meant by that. "You changed people's opinions?" Or "You're still not getting moved forward, but you did a good job, and I don't want you to be discouraged?"
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poisontaster told me that I was overthinking it. So I'm going to try to chill and just wait for an answer. If I get moved forward, the next step is shadowing. I should know in a couple of days.
Nothing major going on today or tomorrow. Just work and maybe starting to prepare for trip next week. Tomorrow night, we have game which I'm looking forward to.
And on that note, time to get myself together for work. Everyone have an excellent Thursday!!
Like at work. People don't call in because things are awesome. They call in because something is wrong and they need a scan to see what it is. And that's horrible. But the call itself doesn't have to be. They can talk to someone who is kind and personable, and who will try to help. It doesn't matter how I feel, I'm going to be cheerful and and offer them the chance to interact with someone who will be kind.
This musing brought to you by my interview yesterday where one of the questions was a point blank "Why should it be you?" I'll admit, that one threw me for a moment. I recovered and gave a pretty good answer, but for a moment, I had to think. Why me?
I think the interview went pretty well. I gave the best answers I could, and got a few "I really like that."
There was one answer, about what did I feel was important about interacting with my team. And I said compassion and kindness, but surety. You need to speak with a confidence so they will have faith in your answers. And interestingly, the three women nodded vehemently, but the lone guy was like "It's okay to say you're not sure." And I could see all three women thinking "Sure, if you have male privilege, you can do that and not get eaten alive."
Later, he called me to check in to see how we were doing post dad because I had a couple of badly scored calls around that time. He said he wanted me to know that I did a great job in the interview.
Of course, I spent the rest of the night picking apart the whole interview and trying to decide what exactly he meant by that. "You changed people's opinions?" Or "You're still not getting moved forward, but you did a good job, and I don't want you to be discouraged?"
poisontaster told me that I was overthinking it. So I'm going to try to chill and just wait for an answer. If I get moved forward, the next step is shadowing. I should know in a couple of days. Nothing major going on today or tomorrow. Just work and maybe starting to prepare for trip next week. Tomorrow night, we have game which I'm looking forward to.
And on that note, time to get myself together for work. Everyone have an excellent Thursday!!
