So, yesterday was a shitty day. First off, I seem to have borked my shoulder. I had problems with it like 25 years ago, but they just prescribed physical therapy, which never did anything. Eventually, it somewhat improved, but never was 100%. And now it's peeved at me. It aches constantly, and it hurts to lift it or move it. I've got a call in to an ortho, but they haven't called me back yet, and god knows when they'll get me in.
It makes it very difficult to help with dad. It was very difficult to pull him up in bed because of it. We got him there, but not as easily as usual.
And then there was my progress meeting. It did not go well. According to my trainer, not only have I not improved, I may have gotten worse. They threw in 100% behind her, and totally discounted my thoughts on the matter. It was frustrating, and basically half an hour of you suck, here's why.
It's difficult, because I like the job. But I may have to consider that it's not the job for me. Yesterday after I got home, I put in a few applications. I'm going to let this ride for another week, but I also don't want to be caught flat footed if it doesn't improve. My trainer is out a couple of days next week, so I'm going to be curious what the substitute thinks of me, because I don't feel like I'm any worse than some of our other trainees, but who knows?
It's doubly annoying coming on the heels of the cardiac arrest patient, where afterwards, I felt hopeful, and like I'd turned a corner. "You did really well, jk, you're horrible."
The next step apparently is a PIP, or personal improvement plan. They're going to get that together and present it to me in the next few days.
The academy trainer was especially rough on me which kind of stung, since I actually respect him.
Right now, I feel like I'm scrambling. Eventually, once the sharpness fades, I'll move into the fuck you determination to prove them wrong, but I'm not quite there yet.
So yeah, not a great day yesterday.
But, tonight we have Brindlewood Bay with![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
poisontaster and tomorrow night we have the continuation of Basilisk Canyon with coyotegestalt and Friday night, I'm running the second game in a series, so we have games three consecutive nights! I'm looking forward to it.
Then, on Sunday, we finally get back to our Mine Finders game, which we've had to cancel a couple of times.
Okay, I guess it's time for me to get my ass in gear. Everyone have an amazing Wednesday!
It makes it very difficult to help with dad. It was very difficult to pull him up in bed because of it. We got him there, but not as easily as usual.
And then there was my progress meeting. It did not go well. According to my trainer, not only have I not improved, I may have gotten worse. They threw in 100% behind her, and totally discounted my thoughts on the matter. It was frustrating, and basically half an hour of you suck, here's why.
It's difficult, because I like the job. But I may have to consider that it's not the job for me. Yesterday after I got home, I put in a few applications. I'm going to let this ride for another week, but I also don't want to be caught flat footed if it doesn't improve. My trainer is out a couple of days next week, so I'm going to be curious what the substitute thinks of me, because I don't feel like I'm any worse than some of our other trainees, but who knows?
It's doubly annoying coming on the heels of the cardiac arrest patient, where afterwards, I felt hopeful, and like I'd turned a corner. "You did really well, jk, you're horrible."
The next step apparently is a PIP, or personal improvement plan. They're going to get that together and present it to me in the next few days.
The academy trainer was especially rough on me which kind of stung, since I actually respect him.
Right now, I feel like I'm scrambling. Eventually, once the sharpness fades, I'll move into the fuck you determination to prove them wrong, but I'm not quite there yet.
So yeah, not a great day yesterday.
But, tonight we have Brindlewood Bay with
poisontaster and tomorrow night we have the continuation of Basilisk Canyon with coyotegestalt and Friday night, I'm running the second game in a series, so we have games three consecutive nights! I'm looking forward to it. Then, on Sunday, we finally get back to our Mine Finders game, which we've had to cancel a couple of times.
Okay, I guess it's time for me to get my ass in gear. Everyone have an amazing Wednesday!
