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Things have been pretty good as of late. I'm slowly increasing my mood stabilizer, and it's working well, though we're past the first halcyon days of 'holy shit, I feel so awesome!' Mostly now, I just feel like I can concentrate and less likely to try to remove someone's head with an axe. I'm very slowly working my way up to 200mg, which is the low end of clinical dosing.
One very pleasant carryover is that my noise phobia is much improved. Previously, I hadn't been able to handle any music in the car, and things on the computer were a total no-go. If it didn't come with subtitles, I didn't want to watch it. If Jess wanted to watch one of her online horror series, I'd hide in the bathroom. It started switching around 75mg, that suddenly, I could handle music in the car sometimes. Usually in the morning. It's still not 100%, but it's a start.
Another thing that has changed is the music I listen to. I had a pretty decent list of music on my computer, but most of it was quiet folk music like Dar Williams, or alternately outlaw country like Zachariah and the Los Lobos Riders or Kane. I rebought some Indigo girls a couple weeks ago, and that was lovely. I'd missed them. (Yes, I am a lesbian stereotype.) I started bopping along with the Foo Fighters again. There was only one step to take to get back to all the music I'd loved. It required rebuying some CDs that had disappeared, but it was totally worth it.
This morning, I cheerfully sang along, spitting curses out right in time with his Mighty Hetfield-ness. God, I missed Metallica. How did I forget how much I loved their music. Hell, it was one of the first concerts Jess and I went to together. (That, or N'Sync-yes, I know. I have absolutely horrible taste in music.) S&M was my introduction to Metallica, and it will always be my favorite. And now, it's back in my CD changer. I can't wait to drive home and listen to more.
It's weird, how much it felt like I was coming home, listening this morning. I still remembered every word, every added curse. Next up, Reload and Garage inc. Also, Godsmack. I love me some Godsmack. They opened at the Met concert we went to in Philly. (I may have a bit of a crush on Sully.)
Next post: An idea that I had, but I might need some help with it....
One very pleasant carryover is that my noise phobia is much improved. Previously, I hadn't been able to handle any music in the car, and things on the computer were a total no-go. If it didn't come with subtitles, I didn't want to watch it. If Jess wanted to watch one of her online horror series, I'd hide in the bathroom. It started switching around 75mg, that suddenly, I could handle music in the car sometimes. Usually in the morning. It's still not 100%, but it's a start.
Another thing that has changed is the music I listen to. I had a pretty decent list of music on my computer, but most of it was quiet folk music like Dar Williams, or alternately outlaw country like Zachariah and the Los Lobos Riders or Kane. I rebought some Indigo girls a couple weeks ago, and that was lovely. I'd missed them. (Yes, I am a lesbian stereotype.) I started bopping along with the Foo Fighters again. There was only one step to take to get back to all the music I'd loved. It required rebuying some CDs that had disappeared, but it was totally worth it.
This morning, I cheerfully sang along, spitting curses out right in time with his Mighty Hetfield-ness. God, I missed Metallica. How did I forget how much I loved their music. Hell, it was one of the first concerts Jess and I went to together. (That, or N'Sync-yes, I know. I have absolutely horrible taste in music.) S&M was my introduction to Metallica, and it will always be my favorite. And now, it's back in my CD changer. I can't wait to drive home and listen to more.
It's weird, how much it felt like I was coming home, listening this morning. I still remembered every word, every added curse. Next up, Reload and Garage inc. Also, Godsmack. I love me some Godsmack. They opened at the Met concert we went to in Philly. (I may have a bit of a crush on Sully.)
Next post: An idea that I had, but I might need some help with it....
