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cathrowanIt's been a couple of months of ups and downs, and this month is very definitely up. K and I are on a bucket-list trip overseas. We started with three days in Amsterdam followed by 10 days in London. Many thanks to cosmolinguist for recommending the Travelodge chain. We stayed in the Covent Garden hotel and it was brilliant.
We arrived in Belfast yesterday. I hope to do a bit of promotion for the Edmonton in 2030 Worldcon bid. I'm not on the committee, however I can testify as to how my home city is pretty great. I have brought a package of maple sugar candies with me for the purpose of giving one to each person who asks me a question.
cosmolinguist for recommending the Travelodge chain. We stayed in the Covent Garden hotel and it was brilliant.We arrived in Belfast yesterday. I hope to do a bit of promotion for the Edmonton in 2030 Worldcon bid. I'm not on the committee, however I can testify as to how my home city is pretty great. I have brought a package of maple sugar candies with me for the purpose of giving one to each person who asks me a question.
nilchanceso I had a diagnostic mammogram on Friday to follow up on some stuff they saw in October, and apparently I need a biopsy now. there's a roughly 2 cm calcification that sprung up in the last 6 months plus another area of calcification in the same breast. the radiologist reassured me that there's an 80% chance it's benign and there's no history of breast cancer in either side of my biological family, but I'm worrying a little bit. I'll admit that a large part of my anxiety is based around the fact that the biopsy is done under a local anesthetic and involves a loud, sudden noise that might make me jump while getting impaled because I have PTSD and an exaggerated startle reflex. I've been hella distracted for the last few days; I'm not making progress on the novel or in my coursework, which just adds to the anxiety. thankfully I have plenty of d&d games to get my mind off of things, but at the moment the biopsy isn't until May 9th. that's a long time to be chewing on this.
and then there's the fact that this won't be resolved until after I meet with the gender therapist to get assessed for a WPATH letter, so I'm wondering if I should reschedule until after the biopsy and add another month or so wait to the top surgery quest. it's funny, one of the first things I thought on the drive home was that hey, if I do get hit with that slim one-in-five chance of it being malignant, at least I can ask for a double mastectomy and skip all the bureaucratic faffing about. XD
so yeah, if I seem quiet and moody, that's what is going on with me.
and then there's the fact that this won't be resolved until after I meet with the gender therapist to get assessed for a WPATH letter, so I'm wondering if I should reschedule until after the biopsy and add another month or so wait to the top surgery quest. it's funny, one of the first things I thought on the drive home was that hey, if I do get hit with that slim one-in-five chance of it being malignant, at least I can ask for a double mastectomy and skip all the bureaucratic faffing about. XD
so yeah, if I seem quiet and moody, that's what is going on with me.