Sunset shadows through the trophies, I guess it just ain't big enough

[beanside]

Whoo! We survived Monday! Go us! It was a busy Monday at work. I had a lot of difficult studies to schedule (Nuclear Medicine and Flourouscopy, I'm looking at you.) and the phone was pretty much steady, with no break between calls until 5pm. Today will probably be pretty busy too, but we'll see.

My stuff for the surgery is slowly arriving. The wedge pillow came on Saturday, and the sling/pillow comes today. Next pay, I have to buy more stuff, including a button down dress for easy dressing after surgery and specialized ice packs for my shoulder as well as some implements for personal hygiene. It's annoying that above and beyond the expense of the actual surgery, I'm having to put so much money out ahead of time. At least the actual sling was covered under durable medical supplies.

I'm a little nervous about how much this is all going to cost. I need to do it, so I'll have to make it work, but I have no doubt that a shoulder scope rotator cuff repair, possible PRP injection and AC joint resection are not cheap. I've seen anywhere from $8k on up to $30k.

Overall, I'm starting to get nervous about the surgery. I've only had anesthesia 4 times in my life, and I did fine with it, but the last one was when I was 30. The last surgery I had was when I was 18 for a tonsillectomy. This is totally outside of my zone.

I'm worried about post surgical pain. I think I have a high pain tolerance, but what if I'm wrong, and I'm a whiny baby about it?

I know I need to do it, but I'm also fretting about the effect it's going to have on my family. I won't be able to get dad up at all, which means his whole day is going to shift. They're going to have to get him up in the evenings when we don't have games. I won't be able to do anything with him at all for a few months. That's a lot on Jess and my sister. Mostly Jess, if we're being honest.

In a couple of weeks, I'll go for my preop, and get that out of the way. I'm probably going to go to Urgent Care for it, since my appt with my new primary care isn't til the day before my surgery.

Currently, I'm plotting what cupcakes I'm going to pick up for Father's day. We're going to the cupcakery that's my favorite, since dad doesn't care beyond it being sugar. I'm debating what I want to get. On one hand, snickerdoodle cupcake. On the other Strawberry Fields cupcake. Decisions.

Okay, time to consider getting myself together. I have two meetings this morning, so I have to put on actual clothes. It doesn't have to be nice clothes, but it does have to be something I'm not ashamed to say I work in. I guess I'll have to wear a bra, too. Ugh.

Anyhow, everyone have a lovely Tuesday!

Comments

[dine]

important issue first - buy both cupcakes, and eat half of each (or all of both, I'm not judging)

I'm hopeful your insurance picks up the majority of expenses, and the balance isn't too awful - but it needs to be done and now is better than trying to ignore it until later.

if you'd not had issues with anesthesia before, I bet that won't be an problem this time either. and I also bet they'll do what they can to manage your pain so you're not suffering during the recovery period.

[weyrlady]

I wonder if it might be worth looking around for some community resources to help with your dad? In my mom's area, there are organizations like the local Lion's Club that can organize volunteers to come by and help out with things like getting someone out of bed, or maybe doing some shopping. There may be other groups and things that can help with support, too. Like https://gorides.org/ in the Olney area.