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beansideIt's Tuesday! We survived our first day back after a holiday! Yay! The last two nights, I haven't slept great. Having trouble getting to sleep. Once I get to sleep, I'm like a log, but getting to that point has been a problem. I'll try to get to bed early tonight, in the hopes that if I give myself some wind-down time, it'll be better. Last night wasn't a shock, since my brother in law was over, and my sister was very interactive and I was just wildly overstimulated by the time I went downstairs. Full on claw my own skin off to escape overstimulated, which is always fun. I escaped downstairs and took some anti anxiety meds, which helped somewhat I suppose. I think the quiet helped more, though.
I'm still struggling with getting off at 3. My brain is still stuck in "off work, time to eat and go lay down for awhile mode." It can't seem to fathom that it's only 3:30ish when I get home, so it has to stay awake for a few hours. It's of the opinion that anything but horizontal time is bullshit. I'll get used to it, probably just in time to switch to evening shift.
Yesterday was okay. I feel like whenever I get one thing down, my trainer moves the goal posts. I get a call, do a protocol perfectly, and then I've chosen the wrong protocol. Yesterday, I asked someone if the patient was awake. They said no. Sounded a little hesitant, so I asked is she awake? No. So, I launched into the unconscious protocol and did the breathing check. It's slow, so I ask him to get her on her back and tilt her head back to open the airway, prepping to do CPR. And she starts talking. I leave the airway directions on the table, and then back out of cpr to continue the protocol. Now, it's my fault, because I should have asked if the patient was responding to stimulus. No where in the protocol does it say that. But I, who have been on the phones for 3 weeks should have known. I will fight on that one, honestly.
It's just disheartening. I'm working to correct my issues, and now, it's other things that weren't mentioned previously. I don't know whether to be proactive and send a message to the supervisor, or if I should wait til my review next week.
Oh well, today is another day to do better. The annoying thing is that I hear other trainees making the same type of mistakes that I'm making, and they're not getting anywhere near the kind of feedback that I am.
Okay, time to go put on pants and chug down my coffee. Everyone have a most excellent Tuesday.
I'm still struggling with getting off at 3. My brain is still stuck in "off work, time to eat and go lay down for awhile mode." It can't seem to fathom that it's only 3:30ish when I get home, so it has to stay awake for a few hours. It's of the opinion that anything but horizontal time is bullshit. I'll get used to it, probably just in time to switch to evening shift.
Yesterday was okay. I feel like whenever I get one thing down, my trainer moves the goal posts. I get a call, do a protocol perfectly, and then I've chosen the wrong protocol. Yesterday, I asked someone if the patient was awake. They said no. Sounded a little hesitant, so I asked is she awake? No. So, I launched into the unconscious protocol and did the breathing check. It's slow, so I ask him to get her on her back and tilt her head back to open the airway, prepping to do CPR. And she starts talking. I leave the airway directions on the table, and then back out of cpr to continue the protocol. Now, it's my fault, because I should have asked if the patient was responding to stimulus. No where in the protocol does it say that. But I, who have been on the phones for 3 weeks should have known. I will fight on that one, honestly.
It's just disheartening. I'm working to correct my issues, and now, it's other things that weren't mentioned previously. I don't know whether to be proactive and send a message to the supervisor, or if I should wait til my review next week.
Oh well, today is another day to do better. The annoying thing is that I hear other trainees making the same type of mistakes that I'm making, and they're not getting anywhere near the kind of feedback that I am.
Okay, time to go put on pants and chug down my coffee. Everyone have a most excellent Tuesday.
