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beansideSaturday, and I'm up at 7:30 on my own. For once, the cat didn't wake me up. She's snuggled up somewhere sleeping tight for a change. I just was awake. On the one day a week I can sleep til whenever. Dammit, body. Can't you play nice for five seconds?
Yesterday, I did absolutely nothing for the first 3/4 of the day. We watched a little bit of Bake Off, but the dog has a tendency to steal Jess' seat the moment they get up, so we weren't quite able to get through the second episode. Aside from that, I paced online and was generally bored. Finally, at about 4:15, I stirred myself to make dinner.
There was a 60% off deal on Hello Fresh, so I got four dinners. It's honestly too expensive to do it that often, but at that discount, it was entirely doable. Last night was mozzerrella chicken, roasted carrots and buttery couscous. All in all, pretty tasty. Everyone seemed pretty happy with it. Dad even ate about half a breast and some carrots. (He wasn't fond of the couscous.). But all and all, a definite hit. Tonight shall be Wonderburgers with secret sauce. If the tastyness continues, it might be something I occasionally splurge on.
I'm really having a hard time with waiting for an answer on the job. Right now, I'm having a downswing, and am pretty solidly convinced that it's going to be a no, but I'm unsure of what comes next if I do. I've really enjoyed my time with IKEA, but the last year has been such a clusterfuck. And I'm tired of being the go to for everything and not getting a damn thing for it. I helped to train my motherfucking manager. I've been pulled into multiple meetings with regional directors, because I'm the expert on various subjects, but I can't get promoted to save my life.
The problem is that they pay pretty well, and I have no real transferrable skills or schooling. Also, I really can't afford the few months of COBRA insurance coverage before a new job kicked in. Plus, honestly, with the Supreme Court threatening to go after my marriage, my inclination is to stay with the place that had domestic partner benefits since 1995, just in case. So, I'm kind of stuck on the hamster wheel for the moment, and that's kind of fucking with my mental health.
Next week, Thursday is going to be busy for me. I've got meetings all damn day. First up is yet another meeting with one of the regional directors, because we changed transport providers for the Buffalo/Rochester area, and I am apparently the only one who knows how to get pickups done. (Seriously, I had to make a powerpoint and train the Staten Island team on how to do it.). Then, we have our team meeting right after lunch, then I have my performance evaluation at 3.
The performance eval is another thing that's pissing me off. IKEA as a whole didn't hit their sales goals or our Happy Customer Score (which is kind of bullshit anyway). So, as a result, it is basically impossible to get an exceeds expectations on your eval. Which basically means that if you bust your ass and go above and beyond, you're getting the exact same raise as the people who do nothing. It's total bullshit. I mean, to be honest, it's not like getting exceeds got you all that much more--a grand 1% extra, but it's the principle of the thing.
Also, I'm having issues with who is giving me my eval. My current manager has been my manager for all of a month. She's said that my prior manager left scant notes. She isn't in for 20% of my on shift days. How is this woman qualified to evaluate me? On the other hand, former!manager is there all my scheduled days, and interacts with me a hell of a lot more frequently. It just makes no sense, but then again a lot of things haven't.
My sister went to the funeral home for a cousin's husband, and stood for a little while, then she came home and could barely move because of the pain she was in. I ended up putting Dad to bed that night. It really makes me worry about the 10 days that we are going to be away at Disney in February. I just don't know if she can handle being the sole caretaker. I've been looking online at respite care, which I know he would hate. But I think it's the only way to go about it, honestly. I want them both to be safe while we're away, but we are going away. The majority of the caretaking burden falls on us, especially Jess and we need a break.
All in all, life is stressful right now and I dislike it, but at least there's D&D.
We had a lovely game last night, working our way through one of the Adventure League one shots. It was a lot of fun with wonderful people. I had a lot of fun DMing it. Sadly, because of life, we had to cancel todays game, so no games until next Friday, which is sad. Then, we can figure out scheduling for all the other games (ugh). Scheduling was much easier during the pandemic when no one had outside lives. I feel like I still have no outside life, but apparently other people occasionally have things like work and personal obligations and even do fun shit outside of the house? Sounds fake, but okay.
For now, I'm going to go have more coffee and enjoy the quiet until someone wakes up. Everyone have a good Saturday!
Yesterday, I did absolutely nothing for the first 3/4 of the day. We watched a little bit of Bake Off, but the dog has a tendency to steal Jess' seat the moment they get up, so we weren't quite able to get through the second episode. Aside from that, I paced online and was generally bored. Finally, at about 4:15, I stirred myself to make dinner.
There was a 60% off deal on Hello Fresh, so I got four dinners. It's honestly too expensive to do it that often, but at that discount, it was entirely doable. Last night was mozzerrella chicken, roasted carrots and buttery couscous. All in all, pretty tasty. Everyone seemed pretty happy with it. Dad even ate about half a breast and some carrots. (He wasn't fond of the couscous.). But all and all, a definite hit. Tonight shall be Wonderburgers with secret sauce. If the tastyness continues, it might be something I occasionally splurge on.
I'm really having a hard time with waiting for an answer on the job. Right now, I'm having a downswing, and am pretty solidly convinced that it's going to be a no, but I'm unsure of what comes next if I do. I've really enjoyed my time with IKEA, but the last year has been such a clusterfuck. And I'm tired of being the go to for everything and not getting a damn thing for it. I helped to train my motherfucking manager. I've been pulled into multiple meetings with regional directors, because I'm the expert on various subjects, but I can't get promoted to save my life.
The problem is that they pay pretty well, and I have no real transferrable skills or schooling. Also, I really can't afford the few months of COBRA insurance coverage before a new job kicked in. Plus, honestly, with the Supreme Court threatening to go after my marriage, my inclination is to stay with the place that had domestic partner benefits since 1995, just in case. So, I'm kind of stuck on the hamster wheel for the moment, and that's kind of fucking with my mental health.
Next week, Thursday is going to be busy for me. I've got meetings all damn day. First up is yet another meeting with one of the regional directors, because we changed transport providers for the Buffalo/Rochester area, and I am apparently the only one who knows how to get pickups done. (Seriously, I had to make a powerpoint and train the Staten Island team on how to do it.). Then, we have our team meeting right after lunch, then I have my performance evaluation at 3.
The performance eval is another thing that's pissing me off. IKEA as a whole didn't hit their sales goals or our Happy Customer Score (which is kind of bullshit anyway). So, as a result, it is basically impossible to get an exceeds expectations on your eval. Which basically means that if you bust your ass and go above and beyond, you're getting the exact same raise as the people who do nothing. It's total bullshit. I mean, to be honest, it's not like getting exceeds got you all that much more--a grand 1% extra, but it's the principle of the thing.
Also, I'm having issues with who is giving me my eval. My current manager has been my manager for all of a month. She's said that my prior manager left scant notes. She isn't in for 20% of my on shift days. How is this woman qualified to evaluate me? On the other hand, former!manager is there all my scheduled days, and interacts with me a hell of a lot more frequently. It just makes no sense, but then again a lot of things haven't.
My sister went to the funeral home for a cousin's husband, and stood for a little while, then she came home and could barely move because of the pain she was in. I ended up putting Dad to bed that night. It really makes me worry about the 10 days that we are going to be away at Disney in February. I just don't know if she can handle being the sole caretaker. I've been looking online at respite care, which I know he would hate. But I think it's the only way to go about it, honestly. I want them both to be safe while we're away, but we are going away. The majority of the caretaking burden falls on us, especially Jess and we need a break.
All in all, life is stressful right now and I dislike it, but at least there's D&D.
We had a lovely game last night, working our way through one of the Adventure League one shots. It was a lot of fun with wonderful people. I had a lot of fun DMing it. Sadly, because of life, we had to cancel todays game, so no games until next Friday, which is sad. Then, we can figure out scheduling for all the other games (ugh). Scheduling was much easier during the pandemic when no one had outside lives. I feel like I still have no outside life, but apparently other people occasionally have things like work and personal obligations and even do fun shit outside of the house? Sounds fake, but okay.
For now, I'm going to go have more coffee and enjoy the quiet until someone wakes up. Everyone have a good Saturday!
