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beansideUgh, Monday. Mondays are usually boring as fuck at work. The reports don't come in until late, so most of the day there's nothing to do. I can help out with other reports, and probably will, but I just can't do that all day. So, I'll be spending a lot of time on TikTok.
The TikTok algorithm is weird. I get D&D content, which is what I'm there for, plus the occasional cute animal. I also get a lot of "Karen" content where reasonable customer service people deal with shitty behavior from customers and managers. I enjoy some of it, but some of it just gives me anxiety. Especially with the specter of maybe going back to the phones at work.
There is one woman I get a lot of TikToks from, where she calls out parents on bad behavior. Thanks to her, I've seen that a chunk of what I considered "just my mother" might actually have been toxic. So that's been interesting. It's funny how some phrases are universal in the annals of bad parenting. I mean, I knew that she had issues. I was not the favored child, and especially in the last few years, I was the whipping boy. I would go downstairs upset more often than not at the end of the night. But I'm slowly starting to see how she wielded guilt as a weapon frequently. "I guess I can't do anything right" was a favorite. I don't know what to do with the information, honestly. She's been dead and gone for years now.
We had D&D last night. No spoilers, as the Wild Beyond the Witchlight module is relatively new, but the players got a lot accomplished. They fulfilled their final deal with the hags and moved onto the final section of the game. It's a big section, so they're not going to be done for a while yet, but they do seem to be taking the speed run. When you're doing a pacifist run, things move faster, I think. I'm figuring if we continue our every two to three week clip, we'll probably be done around the fall. Maybe sooner, depending on the choices they make. Once it's done, we'll move Strahd up to twice a month, since that is a seriously loooong module.
I'm putting in a proposal for a TTRPG panel at ConFabulation in October, and I plan to mention the Discord server during it, so I'm hoping to be free to run a couple of one-shots or short campaigns for any newbies we might have. Maybe we'll even get a new DM out of it! Then, people could have more games to play in! Even if part of me worries that people will like them more than me. I think all DMs have a certain amount of impostor syndrome. So, y'know, there's a small stupid part of me that thinks that people are just starving for any D&D and that's why they play in my games. The non jerk brain part of me knows otherwise, but y'know. I know some of my players also struggle with feeling like they're annoying, so it's not limited to the DM.
I haven't really found a thread for the panel. Last year, they had a panel on how to build a character, so I don't need to really focus on that part. I think I want to talk about how to tell if a group is for you, and what to look for in a DM. I want people to know that there are options, and that not every play style is for everyone. I don't know yet if I want to touch on other games, or just stick to D&D. I'm leaning towards sticking with D&D, since that's what I know best.
Okay, guess it's about that time. Work beckons and I suppose I shall answer. Everyone have the best of possible Mondays!
The TikTok algorithm is weird. I get D&D content, which is what I'm there for, plus the occasional cute animal. I also get a lot of "Karen" content where reasonable customer service people deal with shitty behavior from customers and managers. I enjoy some of it, but some of it just gives me anxiety. Especially with the specter of maybe going back to the phones at work.
There is one woman I get a lot of TikToks from, where she calls out parents on bad behavior. Thanks to her, I've seen that a chunk of what I considered "just my mother" might actually have been toxic. So that's been interesting. It's funny how some phrases are universal in the annals of bad parenting. I mean, I knew that she had issues. I was not the favored child, and especially in the last few years, I was the whipping boy. I would go downstairs upset more often than not at the end of the night. But I'm slowly starting to see how she wielded guilt as a weapon frequently. "I guess I can't do anything right" was a favorite. I don't know what to do with the information, honestly. She's been dead and gone for years now.
We had D&D last night. No spoilers, as the Wild Beyond the Witchlight module is relatively new, but the players got a lot accomplished. They fulfilled their final deal with the hags and moved onto the final section of the game. It's a big section, so they're not going to be done for a while yet, but they do seem to be taking the speed run. When you're doing a pacifist run, things move faster, I think. I'm figuring if we continue our every two to three week clip, we'll probably be done around the fall. Maybe sooner, depending on the choices they make. Once it's done, we'll move Strahd up to twice a month, since that is a seriously loooong module.
I'm putting in a proposal for a TTRPG panel at ConFabulation in October, and I plan to mention the Discord server during it, so I'm hoping to be free to run a couple of one-shots or short campaigns for any newbies we might have. Maybe we'll even get a new DM out of it! Then, people could have more games to play in! Even if part of me worries that people will like them more than me. I think all DMs have a certain amount of impostor syndrome. So, y'know, there's a small stupid part of me that thinks that people are just starving for any D&D and that's why they play in my games. The non jerk brain part of me knows otherwise, but y'know. I know some of my players also struggle with feeling like they're annoying, so it's not limited to the DM.
I haven't really found a thread for the panel. Last year, they had a panel on how to build a character, so I don't need to really focus on that part. I think I want to talk about how to tell if a group is for you, and what to look for in a DM. I want people to know that there are options, and that not every play style is for everyone. I don't know yet if I want to touch on other games, or just stick to D&D. I'm leaning towards sticking with D&D, since that's what I know best.
Okay, guess it's about that time. Work beckons and I suppose I shall answer. Everyone have the best of possible Mondays!
