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It's Saturday! Whoohoo! I'm so glad, considering this crud that never ends, that I was out the day they called for availability for Saturdays. I'm not scheduled at all this month, and I'm grateful. I've really needed the weekend for rest and recovery.
I'm still coughing, I had two rough stretches yesterday where I coughed until I threw up, and some more where I coughed my ribcage into a muscle spasm. That sucked on both counts. Towards the end of the night, my voice just dropped out for a while. It seems to be back a bit now. I think I'll be okay for D&D at noon. It's not great or normal but it's something. I may message the nurse practitioner and see if she thinks I need a chest xray or antibiotics. I know people are saying the flu this year is lasting, but it's been 18 days of feeling kinda blah. I still am coughing, I still feel kind of run down. I've been abusing the hell out of doordash because I just can't get the energy to cook, and I'm sick of it. I want to be normal again.
Today, as I said, D&D. We have our Arvandor game today. This is my first full homebrew campaign, and I love it. My players are amazing and are roleplaying. It can feel kind of silly at first, to talk in character, but they're past that, and the vulnerability they're showing is just inspiring. It's like a ever growing circle of energy. The more energy they give the characters, the more they interact with the world, the more energy I want to give back. These games leave me energized and make me feel creative and like a good DM.
Objectively, I know I'm a fairly good DM, but there's that imposter syndrome that just about every DM has. We all look at the popular TTRPG podcasts and want to be Brennan Lee Mulligan or Matt Mercer. (For me, I want to be a combination of Griffin McElroy and Aabria Iyengar, with just a smattering of BLM.) I think my strength lies in the improv, in reacting to the sometimes frankly bonkers things the players come up with.
Writing out the next campaign has been interesting. I'm writing it as a module, so that if I wanted to replay with another group, or publish it on Drivethru RPG, I can do it. It's been different. Normally, my notes are minimal/nonexistent. I tend to write scenarios, and then they develop from there. For Arvandor, I wrote them as scenes, which worked well. The players filled in the blanks with roleplay and investigation. I created the cast of characters and the players interacted with them and brought them to life.
Today, I'd like to do a little bit of work on that and maybe vacuum our bedroom. I'm not plotting more than that, because I know I won't do it, and if I make a huge list and fail, I'll just feel bad about myself.
I do want to make dinner tonight. I've got three Denver steaks to cook. I've never had this particular cut, so we'll see how it goes. (Yeah, last night I doordashed--no energy to cook.)
Tomorrow at lunch shall be our crab feast. We've got 8lbs of Dungeness crab, and several full set of crab picking tools. I cant wait! I'm excited about being able to introduce BIL to them. I hope he enjoys them. I know I will.
I think I'm taking on a little more with CONfab this year. Social media is expanding. We're going to step up and promote the con more and also we'll be starting a new monthly newsletter. I'm planning to write most of it. Nothing earth shaking, just info about the con, and about the con discord, stuff like watchalongs or game nights, hangouts. The con is in October, and I'm looking forward to seeing Chicago again.
It'll be a lot of work, but I feel so bad that last year, I kinda fell down on the job. So once we lock in dates, I shall begin the publicity machine.
Okay, I'm going to work on the next module for a little while. Everyone have a wonderful Saturday!
I'm still coughing, I had two rough stretches yesterday where I coughed until I threw up, and some more where I coughed my ribcage into a muscle spasm. That sucked on both counts. Towards the end of the night, my voice just dropped out for a while. It seems to be back a bit now. I think I'll be okay for D&D at noon. It's not great or normal but it's something. I may message the nurse practitioner and see if she thinks I need a chest xray or antibiotics. I know people are saying the flu this year is lasting, but it's been 18 days of feeling kinda blah. I still am coughing, I still feel kind of run down. I've been abusing the hell out of doordash because I just can't get the energy to cook, and I'm sick of it. I want to be normal again.
Today, as I said, D&D. We have our Arvandor game today. This is my first full homebrew campaign, and I love it. My players are amazing and are roleplaying. It can feel kind of silly at first, to talk in character, but they're past that, and the vulnerability they're showing is just inspiring. It's like a ever growing circle of energy. The more energy they give the characters, the more they interact with the world, the more energy I want to give back. These games leave me energized and make me feel creative and like a good DM.
Objectively, I know I'm a fairly good DM, but there's that imposter syndrome that just about every DM has. We all look at the popular TTRPG podcasts and want to be Brennan Lee Mulligan or Matt Mercer. (For me, I want to be a combination of Griffin McElroy and Aabria Iyengar, with just a smattering of BLM.) I think my strength lies in the improv, in reacting to the sometimes frankly bonkers things the players come up with.
Writing out the next campaign has been interesting. I'm writing it as a module, so that if I wanted to replay with another group, or publish it on Drivethru RPG, I can do it. It's been different. Normally, my notes are minimal/nonexistent. I tend to write scenarios, and then they develop from there. For Arvandor, I wrote them as scenes, which worked well. The players filled in the blanks with roleplay and investigation. I created the cast of characters and the players interacted with them and brought them to life.
Today, I'd like to do a little bit of work on that and maybe vacuum our bedroom. I'm not plotting more than that, because I know I won't do it, and if I make a huge list and fail, I'll just feel bad about myself.
I do want to make dinner tonight. I've got three Denver steaks to cook. I've never had this particular cut, so we'll see how it goes. (Yeah, last night I doordashed--no energy to cook.)
Tomorrow at lunch shall be our crab feast. We've got 8lbs of Dungeness crab, and several full set of crab picking tools. I cant wait! I'm excited about being able to introduce BIL to them. I hope he enjoys them. I know I will.
I think I'm taking on a little more with CONfab this year. Social media is expanding. We're going to step up and promote the con more and also we'll be starting a new monthly newsletter. I'm planning to write most of it. Nothing earth shaking, just info about the con, and about the con discord, stuff like watchalongs or game nights, hangouts. The con is in October, and I'm looking forward to seeing Chicago again.
It'll be a lot of work, but I feel so bad that last year, I kinda fell down on the job. So once we lock in dates, I shall begin the publicity machine.
Okay, I'm going to work on the next module for a little while. Everyone have a wonderful Saturday!
