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Today is going to be better than yesterday, because yesterday was kind of a shitshow. It was like I couldn't do anything correctly. It was just a mess.
I'm really frustrated, both with myself and with the trainer at this point. I know I've only been on the phones for 2 1/2 days, but I feel like I should be doing better. My trainer, as I've mentioned, is a bit of a perfectionist, and she's been correcting me before I have a chance to self correct, and I'm finding it frustrating.
I know I'm botching shit, but she's not making it any better. And I get it, some of these calls are time sensitive, but on the ones that aren't, I need a second to take a deep breath.
It's just really frustrating and making things difficult. I'm not used to struggling to do things, and it's stressing me out.
The woman I'm training with has experience, so she's kind of sailing along. She'll get two sentences written for her eval on each call, and I get a book. Not quite sure why they paired me with her, unless they thought I'd be better than I am. All it's doing is making me feel like Bobo the clown, though.
My trainer is being very nice about it, but I feel like she's frustrated with me.
The only consolation is that I texted one of my classmates, and she says that she feels like everyone is struggling. She's having a rough time of it, too. Though I really dislike her trainer. She seems like a bully.
All I can do is try to do better today, I suppose. I just have to keep paddling, and I'll get there eventually.
I feel a little better this morning than I did last night. Last night involved a LOT of me telling my brain to leave it, like a dog. Jess taught me that technique and it's suprisingly effective. Eventually you circle back to it, but my brain did drop the subject for a little while.
At least it's pay week, and I'll have an extra day of pay for Veteran's day, so that's nice.
Okay, about time for me to get my ass in gear. Everyone have the best Monday you can have!
I'm really frustrated, both with myself and with the trainer at this point. I know I've only been on the phones for 2 1/2 days, but I feel like I should be doing better. My trainer, as I've mentioned, is a bit of a perfectionist, and she's been correcting me before I have a chance to self correct, and I'm finding it frustrating.
I know I'm botching shit, but she's not making it any better. And I get it, some of these calls are time sensitive, but on the ones that aren't, I need a second to take a deep breath.
It's just really frustrating and making things difficult. I'm not used to struggling to do things, and it's stressing me out.
The woman I'm training with has experience, so she's kind of sailing along. She'll get two sentences written for her eval on each call, and I get a book. Not quite sure why they paired me with her, unless they thought I'd be better than I am. All it's doing is making me feel like Bobo the clown, though.
My trainer is being very nice about it, but I feel like she's frustrated with me.
The only consolation is that I texted one of my classmates, and she says that she feels like everyone is struggling. She's having a rough time of it, too. Though I really dislike her trainer. She seems like a bully.
All I can do is try to do better today, I suppose. I just have to keep paddling, and I'll get there eventually.
I feel a little better this morning than I did last night. Last night involved a LOT of me telling my brain to leave it, like a dog. Jess taught me that technique and it's suprisingly effective. Eventually you circle back to it, but my brain did drop the subject for a little while.
At least it's pay week, and I'll have an extra day of pay for Veteran's day, so that's nice.
Okay, about time for me to get my ass in gear. Everyone have the best Monday you can have!
