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It's Tuesday! Which is apropos of nothing, just thought I'd point it out.
Looked yesterday, and thanks to paying off some bills and Express Scripts apparently not charging me for the last three or four prescriptions, the bonus is gone, gone. I was really upset last night, and was kicking myself mightily for not watching my spending closer. But bills are up to date, and I'll have my inhalers, and Christmas is pretty much done. I may get Dad one more thing, but that's about it. I still feel bad about the things I bought myself, though. I really needed some shirts that fit, with the return to the office looming, and I need a new winter jacket that fits, but there's still the little jerkbrain part of me whispering that I don't need nice things. Last night, that part of my brain was going strong. It's a little better this morning, after I looked through all the charges on my card and realized that yes, we needed groceries and I wanted to make a nice Christmas for my family.
The back is still there. Not as painful as Sunday, but still pretty rough. My jerkbrain has also engaged on that, as it says that I am basically useless right now. I can't hold up my end of taking care of Dad, leaving everything on Jess and my sister. I'm hoping once I'm moving around a little it loosens up some. I am not enjoying the need to lay flat all the fucking time.
Yesterday, I managed work by getting up and moving around a few times an hour. It's not so bad if I'm standing. I had some markets to work, and some on the project folder, but that wasn't too bad. It at least gave me something to focus on. Today, my coworker is back, so I won't have quite as much stuff to do. Not sure if that's a good thing or bad. At least I'll have someone to talk to. It was quite boring without him.
Okay, time to get up and move around again. Have a good day everyone!
Looked yesterday, and thanks to paying off some bills and Express Scripts apparently not charging me for the last three or four prescriptions, the bonus is gone, gone. I was really upset last night, and was kicking myself mightily for not watching my spending closer. But bills are up to date, and I'll have my inhalers, and Christmas is pretty much done. I may get Dad one more thing, but that's about it. I still feel bad about the things I bought myself, though. I really needed some shirts that fit, with the return to the office looming, and I need a new winter jacket that fits, but there's still the little jerkbrain part of me whispering that I don't need nice things. Last night, that part of my brain was going strong. It's a little better this morning, after I looked through all the charges on my card and realized that yes, we needed groceries and I wanted to make a nice Christmas for my family.
The back is still there. Not as painful as Sunday, but still pretty rough. My jerkbrain has also engaged on that, as it says that I am basically useless right now. I can't hold up my end of taking care of Dad, leaving everything on Jess and my sister. I'm hoping once I'm moving around a little it loosens up some. I am not enjoying the need to lay flat all the fucking time.
Yesterday, I managed work by getting up and moving around a few times an hour. It's not so bad if I'm standing. I had some markets to work, and some on the project folder, but that wasn't too bad. It at least gave me something to focus on. Today, my coworker is back, so I won't have quite as much stuff to do. Not sure if that's a good thing or bad. At least I'll have someone to talk to. It was quite boring without him.
Okay, time to get up and move around again. Have a good day everyone!
