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Sleep did not happen easily last night. I wasn't able to get to sleep until late, and I had much anxiety over it. I'm not sure when I finally got to sleep, but I'm tired today. It's my Friday, at least, so that's at least one good thing. Unfortunately, it's my night to put Dad to bed, so I won't be able to go to bed early tonight.

In the "things what make T happy" list, the Great British Baking Show comes back next week! Sadly, Sandi left the show and they replaced her with another white dude. Really, people? You couldn't put a person of color in the mix? I know there are comedians who are not lily-white, and some? Are even queer! Sometimes, I just don't understand producers.

I continue to have anxiety about the state of the world, I'm just smushing it down and repressing like a champion. I have to stop myself from doomscrolling on Twitter at least once or twice a day. The election is currently a special hell for me. The thought of another 4 years of this makes me terrified, and I just don't know if there's enough people in the right places for it to make a difference. And I won't know for another month and a half, and that is agonizing. I can't let myself hope, because if Biden loses, it's going to hurt. I may not be doing as good at pushing things down as usual.

Sorry, I'm a little doom and gloom today. It'll get better, just the byproduct of shitty sleep. By tomorrow I'll be back to normal, and repressing like hell.