beanside: (Jeff grin)
beanside ([personal profile] beanside) wrote2008-04-12 08:20 am
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Fic: Upon My Liar's Chair (4/?) WIP

Title: Upon My Liar's Chair
Rating: Adult
Disclaimer: Thankfully, this didn't happen. I don't know them, I don't know what they do in their spare time, but I doubt it's any of this.
A/N: Much love to my wife for doing the quick once over. Sweet Charity fic, for [livejournal.com profile] avid_slacker
Warning: Character injury, permanent disability.




After nearly a week of rain, it was nice to have sun again, Jensen thought, rolling out along the paved path to the whirlpool end of the pool. Not that it made a difference, but the chair cushion was getting musty.

Parking next to the lift, he gritted his teeth. This was the part he hated the most. If it wasn't for how good the bubbling water felt, he'd never go through it. Somehow, the muscles in his legs took dangling off the edge of the lift as an invitation to spasm and hurt like nobody's business.

The spasms had died down a little, but some days, it still hurt like someone was torching his legs. Those days, it was all he could do to crawl out of bed into the chair to get the painkillers.

He could call Jared, but dammit, he could handle it. He'd better fucking well get used to handling it.

Sure, the doctors told him that he could still have improvement. The statements were always couched with phrases like “there's so much we don't know about how the spine works,” and “it's up to your body.”

His parents told him regularly to “have faith.” Just the thought made him want to throw something. Have faith in what, exactly?

God? Sure, he was on the big guy's good side, obviously. In the body that had betrayed him? Yeah, that would happen. Right now, the only fucking thing he had faith in was the narcotics that kept him from screaming in agony.

The facts of the matter were that he hadn't regained any more feeling or mobility in his legs since the day he'd come to at the hospital. Right now, it was pretty unlikely that he was getting a whole lot more.

He was pretty lucky that he had what he did, or so they told him. It could have been a lot worse. No bowel, no bladder function. No sexual function. Even if right now he couldn't imagine having sex, it was nice to know it was still there.

No sense putting it off, he thought. With a soft grunt of pain, he shifted his weight onto his arms, transferring from the chair to the lift's seat.

As expected, his legs began jumping immediately, the muscles reacting to the lack of support. It seemed to take forever for the lift to swing him over the whirlpool and lower him until the seat was flush to the bench seat in the bubbling water.

More than once, he'd spent the whole day here, not willing to lose the peaceful feeling of weightlessness. At least in the water, his legs didn't matter so much.

A soft chime alerted him that someone had opened the gate at the end of the driveway, and Jensen cursed. Had to be Jare. He was the only one with the code.

Closing his eyes, he tried to get himself settled, forcing an easy smile on his lips. A moment later, he heard the click of toenails on the pavement, and he opened his eyes to say hello to Sadie.

Instead of golden-red fur, he found black and tan fur, and a pair of calm, sweet eyes watching him. “Hey, Bisou!”

She wriggled, giving him a doggie smile, and crawled to the edge of the whirlpool, laying her head down for him to scratch.

“I see the girl has already found you,” Jeff said, strolling over towards the pool. “She took off like a shot the moment I opened the door.”

“Hey,” Jensen murmured, managing a smile. If there was one person on earth who wouldn't scrape at every raw nerve, it was Jeff. There was no one more easy going. “What're you doing in Vancouver?”

“I have a couple of months off, and the next movie is shooting up on Whistler, so it seemed like a good time to come up and visit my boys, take it easy for a few weeks.”

Jensen nodded. “Cool. You staying with Jared?”

“Nah. Haven't gotten that far honestly. I figured I'd find a hotel for a couple nights then worry about renting a house.” Jeff shrugged.

“You could stay here,” Jensen heard himself say.

Jeff beamed at him. “Seriously? It would just be a couple days.”

Jensen nodded, inwardly cursing. What the hell? Was his brain paralyzed too? The last thing he needed was someone right up in his shit. Too late to take it back, though.

“Thank you so much, dude. I always hate trying to find a hotel that will take Bisou. Something about Rottweilers just freaks them out. I promise, I'll stay out of your way.”

“Don't worry about it, Jeff. The spare bedroom's on the left, if you wanna put your stuff in there.”

“Sounds good. After that, I'm going to run down to the grocery, pick up some stuff for Bisou's food. Anything you need?”

Jensen laughed softly. “Pretty much everything. I was going to put in an order tonight.”

“Cool. Will do. I'll make dinner when I get home.”

“Jeff-” Jensen gritted his teeth.

“Hey, you're saving me cash. It's the least I can do.”

Jensen had forgotten this part of Jeff's personality. Jared called it the well-meaning steamroller. Jeff could smile and cheerfully convince Israel and Pakistan to get along, Jensen was sure of it.

“Thanks. I appreciate it,” Jensen forced out.

“My pleasure.” Jeff turned and headed back towards the front of the house, and Jensen fought the urge to splash him in the ass like a two year old.

This was gonna suck.

[identity profile] sunset-dark.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 12:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Aw! Poor Jensen and his mouth is just running away from him, inviting Jeff to stay. It's so good but much as Jensen might think he's done the wrong thing, Jeff is going to be so good for him.

Great update, I shall look forward to more.

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-14 12:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Heee! Thank you!

[identity profile] 2sexyboys.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 12:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Jensen is going to find it tough trying to push Jeff away...he will push back and maybe, if Jen finds out Jared sort of sent him.... Too short. Need more *g*

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 11:59 am (UTC)(link)
*nod* More will be coming soon, I promise.

Thank you!
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[identity profile] janissa11.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 12:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh baby, you're in a dark, dark place, but Jeff is like opening all the windows and letting the light shine in. Best thing you could have done!

::coughs:: Okay, maybe it's not the most psychologically sound thing to do, talking to the character like he can HEAR ME, but oh well. Man, do I love this 'verse. ::beaming::

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:00 pm (UTC)(link)
*grin* Heee! Thank you! I'm glad it works for you!

[identity profile] deathangelgw.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 01:00 pm (UTC)(link)
short and funny woot!! more soon cuz this like...hurts and makes me smile at the same time...MORE! *snugs*

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:01 pm (UTC)(link)
*laugh* I'm glad you like it!

*grin*

[identity profile] atypia.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 01:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I was so hoping you'd release a new fic tonight! I'm home alone and feeling like shit, this will be a perfect pick me up :)

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Always glad to help! *grin* THankyou!

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[identity profile] iyalode.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 01:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, Jeff ::squishes him:: handled this so deftly it was a thing of beauty.

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:09 pm (UTC)(link)
*grin* Thank you!

[identity profile] trishabooms.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 01:26 pm (UTC)(link)
*well-meaning steamroller*

Yeah, that would do it!!

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:14 pm (UTC)(link)
*grin* Thank you!

[identity profile] maharetr.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 01:29 pm (UTC)(link)
And Jeff just quietly slides back in Jen's life. Win

although I suspect "Jeff could smile and cheerfully convince Israel and Pakistan to get along" you meant Palestine here? :)

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:20 pm (UTC)(link)
*nod* I actually did, but I'd imagine Pakistan would be tough, too. *Grin* Thanks!

[identity profile] snowphilosophy.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 01:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Even if it'll take Jensen some time to properly adapt to his new situation I'm really looking forward to see if Jeff can't make him feel a bit better at least. (With the help of Bisou how could he fail?)

I'm loving this story so far. Looking forward to more!

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:25 pm (UTC)(link)
*Grin* True. Bisou makes all things better.


Thank you!

[identity profile] indusnm.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 01:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks for posting this! Speaking of someone who knows Pakistan fairly well- that would be a feat.
Great chapter, hope you update soon!

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! Should have more very soon!
ext_2984: Dean reads Supernatural (Jensen heart sexy)

[identity profile] jellicle.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 03:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Jensen's subconcious is trying to help him :)
Great update, I feel so much for Jensen and I'm glad Jeff has a way of getting in that won't feel like he is forcing himself into the situation.
Only you, sweetie, only you to make read this pairing :)

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:27 pm (UTC)(link)
*grin* Thank you!

[identity profile] without-me.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 03:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, I do love this. (Not that that's a surprise.)

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:28 pm (UTC)(link)
*laugh* Thank you!
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[identity profile] ysbail.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 04:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Jensen's not going to be able to put on a act for Jeff, not and keep it up. And I've a feeling that Jeff's going to be around for a lot longer than just a couple of days...

:D Already hankering for an update.

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Am hoping to update today! Thank you!

[identity profile] hederahelix.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 04:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah, the subconscious. That pesky way it plows right ahead and says something, like inviting Jeff to stay, before the conscious gets a chance to censor it.

We readers are all terribly grateful for the subconscious.

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Heee! Thank you, darlin.

[identity profile] ladykatiewench.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
No!! It does not suck!! It is good!! Yes Jen, let Jeff take care of you!! It'll be good! I promise!!

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:30 pm (UTC)(link)
*laugh* Thank you!

[identity profile] paintmydays.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 05:22 pm (UTC)(link)
No, this isn't gonna suck, I'm so sure about it, I don't care what you say. =D

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you! I'm glad you like!
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[identity profile] katzb101.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 05:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh boy. I can somehow see this getting worse before it gets any the better.


I'm not sure who my sympathy is going to be with more Jeff or Jensen. *g*

More soon please.

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, it is one of my stories afterall!

[identity profile] glitterglam13.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 06:17 pm (UTC)(link)
I continue to love this so much. Jeff has his work cut out for him, i have the feeling Jensen is not going to let him get away with much after the inicial surprise of seeing him.

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Jen isn't going to be easy. That's for sure.


Thanks!

[identity profile] sharonmarais.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 08:01 pm (UTC)(link)
awwww

glad to see more of this. Jeff is definitely going to notice Jen's pain though...

methinks this is a good thing

HUGS

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:33 pm (UTC)(link)
*nod* Of course he is! He's Jeff!

*grin* Thank you! Hugs, back!

[identity profile] avid-slacker.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 08:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Jeff cooking for Jensen is like a thing with me, and I didn't even mention it on my list of things. That's so awesome.

I'm looking forward to seeing how the roomies situation plays out.

ETA: I just saw the post above mine that mentioned Jeff noticing Jen's pain and thought 'Ooh could there be massages?' Massages are sexy.
Edited 2008-04-12 20:38 (UTC)

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Massages are definitely possible. *nod*

Thank you!

[identity profile] eloise-bright.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 09:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I loved being totally in Jensen's POV here. Getting a glimpse of how hard this really is for him.

All that delicious despondency at the start, and then the little surge of hope when he realises his visitor is Jeff. Well-meaning steamroller. I giggled out loud at that, the thought of Jeff as winner of the Nobel Peace prize.

Can't wait for more!

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:36 pm (UTC)(link)
*nod* It's not easy for him, that's for sure. *nod*

I'm glad you like! Thank you!

[identity profile] frightened.livejournal.com 2008-04-12 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh Jeff, you are SNEAKY LIKE NINJA.

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:36 pm (UTC)(link)
*giggle* Yup. Totally!

Thank you!

[identity profile] xenasoul.livejournal.com 2008-04-13 05:59 am (UTC)(link)
Is not going to suck, silly Jensen.
*g*
Papa Winchester is good for you:)

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Now, if I could just convince him of that!

*grin* Thank you!

[identity profile] lomer.livejournal.com 2008-04-13 07:51 am (UTC)(link)
I love Jensen's perception of Jeff - "well-meaning steamroller", hee. And his urge to splash him. If only because it gave me the mental picture of Jeff with water dripping down the back of his pants and Jensen giggling like a school girl.

Once again I'm glad to see that Jared's taking the pro-active view of friendship and asking Jeff to visit. He's a good buddy.

I'm loving this story. I'd be more eloquent about WHY, but it's almost four am and apparently I become brain dead in the wee hours of the morning. *g*

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:38 pm (UTC)(link)
*nod* Jared's a good friend. *nod* I'm glad you're liking it so much! (and also, I'm amazed at your coherence at 4 am.)

Thank you!

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[identity profile] keyweegirlie.livejournal.com 2008-04-13 10:12 am (UTC)(link)
I'm seriously loving this story. It was really nice to get inside of Jensen's head this time around and not just Jeff and Jared...I'm anxious to see how this little living arrangement is gonna pan out.

*hugs*
-C-

[identity profile] beanside.livejournal.com 2008-04-15 12:38 pm (UTC)(link)
*grin* Thank you!

I'm glad you like. *hugs back*