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And by it, I mean my new crazy pill. Never leave me, Vibryd. It gave me back my words. Words that don't feel like I have to bleed them out one drop at a time. I've written nearly two thousand words over the last three days, when I wrote a sentence in the last three months.

Yeah, 2016 sucked shit. I lost my job...twice. Well, two separate jobs. In the long run, neither was a huge loss, but damn. I had pneumonia that knocked me on my ass for two months (and my lungs are still SUPER pissy about little things like cold air--which is sucking. The orange hedgehog won the election--ugh. (Okay, not getting over that one anytime soon).

But, on the plus side, I have a new job that pays decently and has great benefits. (seriously, any call-center folks in Baltimore: IKEA is hiring and the benefits are wonderful $5 generic meds.) Also of the good, during our benefits fair, they had a couple of drawings for different prizes, and I won a beautiful little Ipad mini. I named it Wanda, because it is fucking magical, y'all. I bought a fold out bluetooth keyboard, and it goes everywhere with me.

But more importantly overall is that now that I have good insurance, I was able to go to my psych doctor and say "Wellbutrin was not the one. What can we try next?" And, because she's awesome, she looked at the options and said "Well, Vibryd has some gastro issues, but a lot of my patients love it.) And honestly, I will deal with the morning nausea and diarrhea to feel human again. It's annoying, but I can write!

I've been on it two weeks yesterday. Still titrating up, and am on 20mg. Day eight, I wanted to listen to music instead of audiobooks. (I have some massive sound sensitivity, which is much worse when I'm depressed). Day 10, I had the beginnings of a plot bunny nibbling my brain. Day 12, I went to Target and bought a new journal, and scribbled down motivations and eventual plot. Day 13, I had 600 words in google docs. Day 14, I had 1800. Who knows what I'll end up with today.

It's really nice for a change.
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